It was kinda a mad rush when I woke up today as I had to be at VCH in less than an hour but was trying to do some stuff. Which includes listening to the songs to get a feel of them and yes, printing more than 10 pages of scores hehe. Yeah I'm always doing things at the last minute and it's terrible. When I arrived at VCH, the whole world was already there (oops) and I strolled in with an iced milo and... In slippers. I don't see what's so amusing about walking around in slippers, aren't they the obvious solution to hurting feet caused by court shoes. But of course, don't wear them on stage lol.


The rehearsal was bad as expected. For me, that is. Seeing that I was looking at the scores for the first time and some parts were so fast and there were so many notes written all over the place, yeah I kinda skipped the G major part for Dong Hai heheh. Lol it was so funny when we were about to go up for our dizi concerto. We noticed that there wasn't much space for us to stand and we were picturing a scenario whereby the erhu bow knocks into us and we fall off the stage. HAHA. But the space was indeed small and couple of times during the song I had to glance at the floor, make sure I was still a few centimetres away from the edge. I think we'd have falled off had we taken a step forward lol.


Well attempted to make good use of the time after the rehearsal ended to really practise but somehow there were a lot of distractions. Still managed to practise the more important parts though. Haha. There was some sort of comparison going on between this year's Huang He and our year's when we were the leading batch. Honestly, it doesn't matter. There's bound to be differences, with completely different groups of people playing it. What's most important is that you all enjoy what you all played and for that, you guys succeeded! Technique-wise, might not have been the best, but it was a joy seeing the juniors so happy after the song and hearing them say they've done their best.


Was praying silently before we went up for Mu Min, helped calm my nerves. It was scary, halfway through my part I got a little over-excited and forgot to inhale a DEEP BREATH so I sounded quite breathless but thank God, managed to build up and pass it on. Thank God, thank God, thank God! Really enjoyed myself for that item, I thought it was such fun standing so close to a full-house audience! Once in a lifetime experience, and I'm thankful for that. The other items went quite well, much better than the rehearsal. Didn't skip anymore parts lol. Oh, the audience response was wonderful. Like always, shouting for one encore after another. But gone were the days when we just started out own encores so after playing just once, we walked off. Hahaha.


So, there's my last concert with DHSCO, the last time we're gonna have a concert in VCH (subsequent years' will be held at DHS). I'm glad I went back to perform, really enjoyed myself and got to know the juniors better. DHSCO, it's been an honour, do give your very best for the Malaysia trip (I might not be going, but I'll give every bit of moral support) and ultimately, SYF. No sweat, just hold on.


Thanks Huijing for everything, you're truly a responsible SL! :)


My mum all of a sudden asked when will the results be released (sigh, I thought she'd have forgotten that I'd taken my A's), to which I told her this friday. Moan. And of course she went on about retaking. Hehs. Not really worrying about it right now but I foresee I'll just faint on that day and not dare to open my result slip at all. But as Audrey said, God will provide enough for us to get to exactly where He wants us to go.

The concert's in 18 hours' time and guess what, I haven't seen the scores for the other combined items that I'm gonna perform for. This is the ultimate last-minute, heh. Thankfully there's a rehearsal for me to screw up and feel scared before I begin my intensive practice lol.


Speaking of the concert, I kinda can't bear for it to end. Yeah, it hasn't even started but all will be over in the blink of an eye! Received an email from Zhiying yesterday, and was I so glad to see, "The tickets have been SOLD OUT!" Ticket sales had been so bad one, two weeks ago. And what with the difficulty in trying to reach the schools, it's really amazing. Thank God, really. The past two months of preparation, guess I'm gonna miss it. Even though I think I've been quite slack... Hehe. I'll miss my inbox being flooded with loads of documents, I'll miss having to meet the various deadlines, I'll miss working with the committee as this is the last event we're organising meaning the last time we're probably gonna work together, I'll miss going back for sectionals (to slack with the juniors) and orchestral practices (to feel scared about my part), I'll miss receiving those notifications about practices and most of all, I'll miss performing with DHSCO! I obviously won't be going back when I'm 20, lol. I definitely won't miss calling up the schools though. Heheh. Yay I've got something to remind me of the concert, a sample poster I got when I went down to print the posters.

Met up with Audrey for dinner at parkway just now. My timing must have been wonderful, when I got on 15 at my place, she was on the bus lol! It was great meeting up with her again, it's been ages since I last saw her! And she wrote me a rather long letter, some sort of "pre A level results release" encouragement. :) Oh, I bought two books by Jeffery Deaver for $18.90! Yays~


Gotta arrive at VCH earlier tomorrow to help out. Youbao and I are in charge of the backstage but... We don't really know what we're supposed to do HAHA. Doesn't matter actually, cos I picture myself drowning in my scores.


These technicalities might be beyond my capabilities, but I can do all things through Christ who strenghthens me!

Went for Street E for the first time on thursday. It was a great experience, exciting, but I don't deny I was a little scared haha. Shy. Chia Wen did the sharing, while I just prayed in my heart. We met three people, and it was very heartening that they were all pretty open and receptive. I kinda expected cold shoulders and all that so yeah, thank God! And Street E's such an awesome thing, specially going out to bring the Good News to people. It's just so amazing, thank God for Street E :)


Vibe was great, went down with Yuqian, Lam Lee and Cristal. Full of nonsense LOL! But yeah, it was fun, THANK YOU for coming down! Hahahaha. The performances were really nice and that reminds me, I'd better do the write-ups soon before the ideas get erased from my limited memory. Stayed around after that to sweep the floor (the only household chore I know is sweeping) heheh. Unlike some housewife I know who seems to be perpetually washing the dishes and cleaning the house LOL! Okay I shan't go on in case I get scolded on someone's blog again HAHAHA. :P After which was a birthday celebration for Pat, which was so sweet, the candles and all. Whee!


Today's sermon was so real. It obviously wasn't fake but yeah, you know. I mean, it happens and the thought is pretty scary. Headed to James' place after that for Hock Cai's birthday surprise. Which was having him blindfolded from church all the way there on the bus (should have seen the amused faces of the passengers, what's more he was exclaiming so loudly lol), walking around at the void deck near James' place, finally pouring a bucket of water containing eggs, prawns, bee hoon and whatever disgusting stuff on him. It was really gross, looking at the water. Lol. And maybe for the first time I'm thankful for my spoilt nose. Lester was commenting in the lift, "YOU REALLY STINK!" but all I could smell was a little eggy stuff hahaha.


Was supposed to meet Audrey for dinner this evening but she had to visit her grandmother. So we're meeting on tuesday, and another day after getting back our A level results to "discuss our plans", as Audrey says. Hahaha. Well I'm pretty much plan-less for now. And speaking of the results, guess they'll be out this friday. I've pretty much shoved it to the back of my mind and it's working, unlike so many of my friends who've been dreaming of results. Come on, you all need to dream of better things. HAHA.


Oh, Pastor Jason said this morning about our sins finding us out. Just like how we can't escape from cheating the bus drivers. I put in 60 cents for my journey today and the bus driver asked me to tap my card. Hehe.


My cousins must be aiming to drain my brain juice dry. First, Nicholas asked a series of questions, and the ultimate, why do gays exist -.- Then, Vanessa asked this.
An animal that has a four-stage life cycle.
_ o _ _ _ _ _ _
I just couldn't think of it.


The answer? Mosquito. Help, I can't even do Primary 4 Science! :/

Just a thought, cos Valerie mentioned it the other day. If you've been a reader of my blog or have known me kinda well since last year (around this period of time or earlier), you should've realised something. Pretty amusing thinking about it, but it's purely random and not some million-dollar realisation. Realised it? Wahaha.


Friday was great, from practice to Uth to Cheryl's birthday surprise. Nice seeing Doris, Xiuyi and Carmen back at DHS again. Probably the last time I'll see Xiuyi for the next one year, she left for Australia yesterday.
It's been wonderful knowing you, you're such a nice, encouraging, humble, funny person. Thank you for having been such an awesome senior, my only DHSCO dizi senior in VJCO! Thank you for all the advice, the laughter. I'm sure you'll adapt fast, and remember to miss me! :D
Uth! Teresa brought Vanessa! It was a pleasant surprise, though we hardly talked in 4C. But yeah, nice seeing her again after so long, my fellow chicken pox sufferer... Haha.
Cheryl's surprise after that, it's always funny to see people attempting to push one another into the pool and the result is that all end up in the pool *smirk* hahaha! Yeah Cheryl's 20! 20 20 20~


Didn't go for the rehearsal yesterday as I woke up a little late and was lazy to head down. Went for Blueprint in the afternoon. Pastor Chee Kheen talked about praying even about the little things. Like when you're running late and the bus refuses to come, pray instead of swearing. I felt like it was directed at me, cos I never fail to scold the buses hee. We had a test at the end of the lesson and yay, I got full marks! Along with Eleanor and someone else. Eleanor was saying that the reason behind our scores is that we're young and still in the EXAM MODE. Hahahaha. Yeah the prize was Pastor Mike's book, Move on to Maturity, with his signature on it. That's really cute, lol. Oh, and I'm still not over the excitement of getting my number up first on the screen. Fast and accurate okay. LOL!!!!! =.=


Wow, today's sermon. The moment I saw the words "Anger Management" on the slide I was like, "I so need that!" Especially since I very nearly yelled at someone last night (thank God I controlled), for some unknown reason was feeling irritated this morning, and I actually have a rather short fuse at home. I get annoyed with the most minor of issues sometimes, rail at my mum when I'm sleepy (sleepy = bad mood for me), get impatient with my dad when he asks me too many questions. Honour one's parents... And Valerie's favourite line comes to mind, "If I were your mum I'd drown you." Lol. To add on, I'm always scolding buses and cyclists.


Pray all the time, ask God for help.


Been paying 55 cents for my bus rides these two days cos my card ran out of money so I decided to try living like a student again. Almost got found out today but the uncle concluded that I must be a student when I flashed him my EZ link. Great way to save money eh? Cheat money, rather. Nah I won't do that anymore, finally topped up my card. I'm honest! Lol.


I sat on my bed for the longest time last night just thinking. Felt a little sad, a little guilty. Yet not really regretting what I said, felt that I should let them know how I feel. I guess the more understanding they are, the worse I feel. I don't wish for my words to be misinterpreted, isn't my intention to hurt anyone. I'm sorry...


Which is the real me?

Been suffering from a severe sleep deficit the past few days, yeah for once, seeing that I'm unemployed, free and aimless. So it was Valentine's Day on saturday, thank you all for the chocolates and cards! Yingxian's card made me feel so guilty. "Remember to come back more often, so that we can slack more!" Gosh, looks like I shouldn't go back too often lol. Anyway, that was one tiring day. Woke up at 6 plus, the earliest in a long long time other than those days when I wasn't asleep yet. I'd slept for only 3 hours, and I don't even get up so early for school! Went back to DHS for the rehearsal, and it was really bad. Especially our item, Mr Quek had to stop more than 3 times! What he said was true, each of us was only focused on our own parts, even for the other items. Just didn't feel anything, hopefully the next 2 rehearsals will see much improvement.


An amusing sight during the rehearsal.
Two guys carrying one Yangqin.
One girl carrying one Yangqin.
What's the world coming to!


Rushed for the Blueprint course after that, which I was extremely late for thanks to an annoying jam. It took half an hour to get from one bus stop to the other, it'd have been faster had I crawled. The lesson was awesome, the ARS was really fun! I felt so pleased everytime my number was first up on the screen LOL! But yeah the point is of course the four lessons on Assurance, Lordship, Faith and Power. Learnt a lot, and I feel much clearer about things now. The last part got me a little blur though. Yeah my memory doesn't have much space, I'll go read it again.


Went to Hort Park after that with the church people, loads of interesting things there haha. And whoa, the walk to Vivocity was soooooo tiring. We walked for around an hour and a half, almost died by the time we'd reached Vivo. But the bridge was really beautiful, some superb sights, and it was fun! Good exercise, even though I don't really need it hahaha.


Got up at 7 plus for service yesterday, after a mere few hours of sleep cos my cousins refused to go home haha. Was actually rather annoyed by something but oh well, forget it. Managed to stay awake during the service, thankfully. But was super tired for the rest of the day. Wanted to catch some sleep before the VJCOGY gathering but I barely slept for an hour before I got woken up by calls and msgs lol. The gathering was alright, the NS guys were sharing their wonderful stories haha. And they wouldn't stop suaning me about my house! Lol.


Alright, I do not have to call the remaining 50 plus schools anymore yay! Just the east zone schools and a few others that are more likely to go. Gonna call tomorrow, cos I woke up too late today hehe. Really hope that ticket sales will pick up, we've got 300 odd tickets left now. We face the same problem every year but in the end it'd be full house for both sessions, but I guess we can't take it for granted cos it's somehow different this year. Yes it's only one session, but gotta take into account that it's on a wednesday, it's during the primary schools CA 1 period, and perhaps common test period for several secondary schools. Well, hopefully it'll get better.


I'm already loving TAR 14! Wooh! :D

I just love sectionals when I'm not required to conduct them, cos then I can do retarded stuff with my juniors like migrating out to the corridor to blast our di zis in an attempt to be louder than.............. Of course, we won. LOL!


I got to explore Tecman for the first time! Went there with Siqian on saturday cos she needed to get some stuff. That place is big, loads of cool stuff, nice place to get presents hoho. Oh, my cousins came over to my place that night with a mic, so we went to karaokeparty.com! Thank God the police didn't appear at my doorstep, cos it was past midnight, four crazy souls at the balcony singing "KEEP BLEEDING, KEEP KEEP BLEEDING LOVE" (I don't like that song, but my cousins love it and karaokeparty doesn't have that great a variety, so I had to make do with that) hahahaha. It was fun, all that mad singing lol.


Went for service at GLCC on sunday, was my first time attending, to find out how it's like. The sermon was really powerful. Encouraging, at the same time a blatant reminder never to lose our focus in the Lord, be it in mirth or sorrow, in triumph or failure. Like myself, I tend to pray more during difficult times, and turn away when everything's going smoothly. This quote especially rings so true.


"God whispers in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, and shouts in our pains."


Joined some of the girls for floorball after service, and all I can say is, wow! There's so much to learn, I learnt a lot from the pros there, and it's really fun! But when it came to the game, I'd forget most of the techniques and just play with this mindset, "just whack when the ball comes" HAHA. Chia Wen, coach me! Haha aye I've got no talent in floorball, but I really enjoyed myself, everyone was so pro, nice and patient, it was awesome! :D


Went down to Temasek Poly yesterday with Lam Lee and Yuqian to support Cristal's fruit tarts. The students from her faculty had to meet some sales target for the food I think. The food was not bad, I must say. And I still find it amusing that the chefs put their spoons in pockets at their arms, it feels that if they raise their arms more than ninety degrees, the spoons will fall out. Hahaha.


Heh, this is what I got up at 12 plus this afternoon (that's way early for me) to do.


"Hi, could I speak to the Chinese Orchestra teacher-in-charge?"
"Wait a moment, I'll transfer your call to the staff room." (Puts me on hold, annoying music starts playing for an eternity until someone finally picks up.)
"Hi, could I speak to the Chinese Orchestra teacher-in-charge?"
"Wait a moment." (Puts me on hold, annoying music plays for yet again an eternity until someone finally picks up.)
"I'm sorry, but Mr/Ms/Mdm Whoever is not around."
"Thank you."


The above, times 30. Yeah, I'm supposed to call up 63 schools to confirm their ticket orders for the DHSCO concert. But it's extremely frustrating when I'm always put on hold only to be told that the teachers aren't around. I called half the number of primary schools, thought it'd be better with the secondary schools but apparently not so I moved on to the JCs after calling half the number of secondary schools. After calling sooooooooo many schools, I only managed to get to 3 teachers, who also didn't manage to confirm the orders and said they'd get back to me but have yet to do so. So all that calling this afternoon comes up to nothing and I've got to start all over again tomorrow. Sigh, it's really exasperating, what's more ticket sales aren't that good now. Argh, please let the teachers be there tomorrow! Or rather, later on zzz.


Met up with Chia Wen in church just now for the second lesson of bible study. Yay I love the book of John, it's relatively easy to comprehend. The thought of Jesus dying for our sins struck me really hard again. The fact that He had a choice not to do so but He did, dying such a painful death for us sinners, us unworthy sinners. This great love, it's just so amazing. "There's nothing you can do to let God love you more; there's nothing you can do to let God love you less." Wow!


I'm suffering from a chronic illness, and it's called joblessness.


Whether trials come or cease
Keep me always on my knees
Lord, I need You

My huhuhuhu Chinese New Year...


For the past many years, CNY had been one of my dreaded occassions of the year but this year's was pretty enjoyable I must say, minus the ongoing family conflicts and discoveries of human hypocrisy and materialism. Wasn't really looking forward to the reunion dinner initially, cos that simply meant a gathering of 90 odd people at my granddad's place, half of them mere strangers to me. I mean, I just don't see the point of having such a "grand" reunion dinner when all we know of one another is that everyone's either a Mr Toh, Mrs Toh or Ms Toh (and I'm neither HAHA). Yeah, Ruth Zhuo sounds a million times nicer than Ruth Toh, admit it! ;) And what with all that friction and one side refusing to even talk to the other, it just defeats the purpose of a reunion dinner. Still, thank God for the time spent talking with some of my very nice relatives. Advice from Xingyi Jiejie on university courses, encouragement from Josiah's mum regarding the A levels. Unlike the typical bombardment of "How do you think you fared?" "What do you wanna study next time?", she said a simple yet assuring line, "Don't worry, just pray." It was really comforting, something not one of my immediate relatives will say. Heheh.


Visiting seemed to pass really quickly, cos we only visited one house on each of the two days. The highlight of this CNY was of course the time spent with my cousins! Playing poker, bridge, hide and seek, catching, watching Liang Po Po (explains the huhuhuhu) and imitating all the retarded conversations on the show, until Vanessa can't stop saying "ALAMAK!!!!!" HAHAHA.


Argh I've been spending like nobody's business the past few days. Lots of shopping (I did my CNY shopping on the third and fourth days wahaha) and singing! Went to Topone, a KTV at Bugis, with Lam Lee and Yuqian on friday. It's quite a cool place, every room has very unique decorations with effects like disco lighting and smoke and some have mini stages! But our smoke thing wasn't working and the light was rather retarded haha. It was fun though, haven't gone singing in a long long time! I wanted to see if I could still sing properly while jumping so I tried, and Yuqian just had to take retarded videos of me doing that and doing my favourite banshee and opera. Don't worry, the videos will never ever be up. Oh yeah, those singers should totally hire me to do their special effects LOL.


Had DHSCOGY reunion dinner at my house on saturday. The food was nice! And I almost died laughing while playing asshole daidee. Justine was giving soooooo many comments. "Your cards are too good, you're OUT!" "We're gonna ban doubles from the next round onwards." "If you all have anything bigger than an 8, pass!" And and,
Someone puts a 7.
The next person puts a J.
Justine starts yelling: Why do you have to put such a big card!
The poor person: I don't have other cards!
Justine: THEN YOU PASS!
Yeah the whole time was spent going crazy, it was just extremely retarded lol!


Went to my cousins' house for dinner yesterday to lao yu sheng. Played with them for a while before the poor kids had to go do their homework. They asked me to entertain them so being the nice person I am, I agreed and ended up helping Vanessa do her homework. It was some colouring thing, was supposed to colour a cow. With my artistic colour sense and some help from Nicholas in the designing, here's our masterpiece!

Vanessa said it's pretty and Vivian got a total shock when we showed it to her HAHA. I wonder what her teacher's reaction will be. But it's cute, no? SUPERCOW!!!!! :D :D :D

3 more lessons and I'll say bye to tuition and welcome jobless-ness again. But I'd rather be jobless and have no income than........ Heh. I'll attempt to look for another job after I've recovered from all these frustrations.

For once, I'm pleased with the Campus Superstar results.

Thank God for the past week, for a blessed CNY, for my family, for my friends.

Today was fun! Went back to DHS for Mumin practice, which only started at 4 plus, so went to look for the Year 2s and 3s during their sectionals. Sometime during the practice, the Sheng people barged in, someone announcing loudly, "Let's go for a half an hour break.... OMG RUTH IS HERE!!!!" hahaha. They thought that I was gonna scold them for slacking but one of the Dizi juniors said, "Can't you tell that Ruth is slacking with us too?" Lol yeah I admit I was. We were doing all sorts of things other than practising! Writing and decorating CNY cards, homework, singing, talking rubbish and telling lame jokes... Hehe. Okay I'm not being a very good example but they've probably practised their SYF songs hundreds of times and we did practise Mu Min! It's beneficial practising in a relaxed state :)


We combined with the orchestra today, and thankfully it was alright. Well it's just the first practice, we'll all improve with more practice. Haha the practice was very short, but I really enjoyed myself with my juniors today! They're all crazy HAHA. But next time I go back, I shan't slack so much.


HAHA I'm laughing at Yuqian for having to spring clean her house at her family's sudden spring-cleaning plans. She's so gonna become a housewife like Lam Lee soon lol! Thankfully my parents won't suggest such a thing. Not that I'll agree anyway!


Pay your CO funds! ;D

I went on my very own Amazing Race: Kallang Bahru, Boon Keng, Bendemeer today! I was supposed to go down to this printing shop to print the posters and tickets for the DHSCO concert, and the address given is 996 Bendemeer Road, Bendemeer JTC. I googled it, found a route that supposedly had the minimum walking journey (totally not the case), and set off happily this morning. Throughout the two bus journeys, I kept my eye intently on the road signs and names of the bus stops, checking them against a picture of the route information in my phone. When I finally arrived at my stop, I alighted very smugly cos I felt so pleased with myself for not getting lost! But that smugness was gone in a few seconds when I realised that I was surrounded by many, many buildings. It was then, "Oh no, where do I go from here?". I had absolutely no clue which direction to go, there were far too many buildings. And I was smart enough not to look up where the building was roughly, but only checked for the route. Heh. Thank God for a guy who gave me a slight inkling on which direction to go.

The stop I alighted was actually at Kallang Bahru (so much for minimum walking distance), so with the guy's rough guide, I walked all the way till I saw Bendemeer Rd. And it was back to cluelessness again, cos once again there were stretches of buildings in all four directions. After crossing a few roads, asking a number of people for directions to little avail, and walking around aimlessly, I felt extremely lost, until I saw a building with "JTC" on it and it was all the way back at Kallang Bahru where I came from. Recalling that the address had "JTC" as well and being someone with as much common sense as direction sense (not much), I walked back feeling happier, thinking that I'd found the place. I obviously hadn't, and that took me a tour of the entire first and second storeys to find out. I exited the building and saw this printed on it, "16 Kallang Bahru". Brilliant.

At that point I felt dejected, lost, thirsty, hungry and tired. I badly wanted to take a cab but decided to perservere, the building could actually be nearby and now that I'm perpetually broke, I ought to save money. Wow, I'm becoming more sensible by the day. Thank God for a security guard who set me off on the right track finally! Thank God for all the people who gave me directions, especially this kindly, smiley old man who gave rather clear instructions and was so nice as to wish me shen ti jian kang and some other chinese idioms haha! So cute! Yeah, after an hour of circling, crossing roads, walking back and forth aimlessly, feeling lost and helpless... The most welcoming sight of the day!

Which meant that... 996 is just ROUND THE CORNER!

At long last... The final destination!

Was simply delighted beyond words! Thank God, thank God, thank God!

Passed them the soft copy of the stuff, had a brief discussion, then scooted off to meet Lam Lee and Yuqian at City Hall, where it was more walking in search of a present for Yuqian's sister. But I was extremely happy for the rest of the day, perhaps the reason behind my more-numerous-than-usual nonsensical comments. Yeah, yeah, we're all pacing and matching one another okay HAHA. Not to mention my two seconds of embarrassment on the train when I tried to imitate a Domokun pose and almost flew. Woops. Oh, met James (NO MORE HAIR lol) and Ms Wong at City Hall!

Hah. I think I wailed and whined about tuition to like, 10 people yesterday. Thanks everyone for your ears and encouragement and humour, was feeling totally annoyed. 8 more lessons to go, I wonder if I can actually complete it. Argh!! I need wisdom, I need understanding.

Sigh. Played The Nomad's Song just now and I felt utterly out of breath. I always wonder, how did I manage to get such fantastic marks for my exam three years back. There's practice tomorrow, and I haven't practised my... Ah I should have told Zheng Laoshi not to trust me with such a technical part, after all I feel that my skills have dropped many notches these past three years hehe. I wanna request for a change of parts! Alright, I seriously should stop moaning and groaning and go PRACTISE.

I'm so tired, broke, aimless and in debt. But otherwise, I'm pretty happy! Hahahahaha :D

I made a few discoveries during the trip to Sentosa on tuesday with Diane, Yingyu and Cephia. Angelina Jolie has a relative in the Underwater World. If you flash your EZ Link with confidence, you'll get to enjoy a student meal. Egg shells and tissue packets are good hiding places for leftovers if you wish to avoid paying fines for raw food taken but not cooked. Heheh. It was nice catching up with them that day, haven't seen Diane in ages since she left for Australia. And it seems a long time since I saw Yingyu too. But the Underwater World and steamboat buffet left me with a budget deficit of -$9.80 for the rest of the week. :(


So I got my first tuition student this week. Kinda lazy to talk about it, other than the fact that I really wanted to give up after thursday's lesson, call Mr Ho and tell him that "I quit". Really had no clue what to do, how to continue. But after loads of counselling and advice (haha thanks all)... I'll just do what I can. Pray and trust God, for I'm weak but He's strong.


Hoho. Was browsing through the December edition of The Link and and and I saw Xiuyi's picture! It was during the third day of camp when everyone was at ECP giving out tracts, and she and her friend happened to be walking by. COOL HUH! I was extremely surprised to see her photo inside haha. And coincidentally she'd planned to go back to DHS today too, so I could let her take a look at her pretty face HAHA.


Yeah went back to DHS today to help conduct sectionals. Doris, Xiuyi and Clara went back as well. Clara laughed at me when I told her I'm giving tuition, and I laughed at her when she said she signed up for driving lessons. And she said she's gonna fetch me home one day lol! Doris is currently studying Nursing! And she was saying that you shouldn't move your shoulders when you breathe cos it's not good, or something like that hahaha. It's no wonder studies say that Woodwind players tend to die young, what with all that circular breathing. Not to mention being hard of hearing. But I think my hearing's pretty excellent. Hah.


Something funny that took place at the bus-stop.


Huijing and I are at the bus-stop. Huijing's bus comes. While she prepares to leave, she thanks me and apologises non-stop for asking me to come back. The bus leaves. Huijing's still at the bus-stop, not done with her expressions of gratitude and apology. LOL! She's super funny! Thankfully another bus came shortly, or I'd be the one apologising non-stop hahaha.


Argh I was soooo annoyed this afternoon. On the bus journey home, I all of a sudden had this heart ache about paying adult fare and kept reminding myself to tap my card when I alight. Soon after, the bus arrived at my stop. With my wallet tightly clutched in hand, I happily alighted. A few seconds after the bus left, I realised, I FORGOT TO TAP MY CARD!!!!!!! ROAR. Guess it's a sign of reaching adulthood, my brain cells are degenerating. :/


Still - Hillsong United


Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand


When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God


Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust


Was listening to this song on repeat mode last night, and it made me tear.

Interesting how men can gossip about the same issues for more than ten years. Interesting how an entire table of people can fall silent with the appearance of visitors from "the other side". Interesting how academics just automatically become the subject of conversation when certain parties come together. Interesting how a mystifying aura can end all conversation when it merely comes from the person who brought them up. Interesting how money can invoke the most creative thoughts. Interesting how individuals can be so ambitious at a tender age. Interesting how a mother drowns her child in assessment books but teaches her to tell everyone that she does not study. Interesting how snobbish they can get when they're really not that capable. Interesting how one could worry over the smallest of issues. Interesting how someone who never fails to go to church every sunday, read the Bible and pray everyday, will never buy lunch for his wife, not let her read the newspaper cos she doesn't pay him 80 cents for it.


Sounds like an unemployed, bored, aimless person's starting to ponder over the most bizarre matters. Nah, was just thinking, the woes of money, academics and egocentricism. Someone mentioned this before, that the world is a troubled one. And I must concur with that.


"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

John 16: 33

Here's a shout out to VIVIAN, my beloved cousin! Happy fifteenth birthday! Continue to obtain excellent results, practise your erhu, and be busy with SC! Stop dreaming of going out to work and get your red car, that can wait. School life's so much better. Treasure your years in DHS, they will fly past before you know it! God bless and stay high, smart and busy! (:

Gosh, I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by the number of emails regarding the concert. A big thank you to Zhou Mo for editting the letters and forms! I feel... Extremely slack. Argh. Anyway, the concert's on 4th March, Wednesday! It's extremely weird, must be the first time in a million years that the DHSCO concert's on a weekday. Hmm....

While we're still on the subject of birthdays... Here's a very gentle reminder, that yours truly is turning 19 in exactly two months! Hee hee hee!

Went back to DHS on friday for the Homecoming celebrations. Met up with Alison, Yinghan and Valerie! It was really cool, not so much the speeches and performances, but the feeling of being home was just awesome. Yeah I've been back a couple of times before that, but it's different when we're back together with so many ex-students. It was a very proud moment at the finale of the performances, with all the party poppers and confetti. Equally heartening to see so many people specially making their way down on that day, taking leave from work, ponning school (the group of students in VJ uniforms, don't think I don't know LOL). Anyway, my O Level cert's still in school! I thought it'd have been long sent back to MOE or incinerated. Lol the lady at the GO reprimanded me about wasting the school's space. But I still haven't collected it, cos they didn't have the keys the other day. So... Maybe when I finally decide to collect it................ But yeah, I love DHS! :)


They finally opened up the new building, and it's huge. It actually has two lifts! But it's so difficult locating the classrooms, they're like on different wings and levels and all that. And I'm still gonna complain about the colour sense, my goodness, out of everyone I talked to, all grumbled about the colours. Lol. I thought I knew the symbolic colours of DHS. But what with the blue, green, maroon and white, I'm a little confused. Wahahaha. Nah. DHS will always be blue and white!


The committee for the DHSCO annual concert had our first meeting today! It's basically most of our batch's comm and a few from the current comm. Huishan's as hilarious as ever.


Siyuan: Huishan! You've lost a lot of weight!
Huishan: Did you see my ass?


LOL! But she did lose a lot of weight. I'll be doing Publication hoho. Everyone was fighting not to do the programme booklet lol. Can't really remember what we have to do, something about posters and invitations but well, I'll remember soon. I don't understand why we have to send invitations to 107 schools, I think 20 will do, really. And it's so sad, this year's concert's on a FRIDAY and there's only one session! Heard it's cos they booked VCH too late. Hmm.


I'm going to scout for a job later! Yeah, I can't really believe that I'm actually gonna look for a job. Hahaha. But the message on friday says, "Start the year well"! So I should quit idling around sleeping 14 hours a day from sunrise to sunset, posting frequent rubbish on my blog, creating 6 mobtv accounts.......


His Way Is Perfect


When my way seems dark and drear, and the future I don't know
My heart feels so empty as the tears unending flow
When my heart breaks with sorrow and a tempest fills my soul
This one thing I know for sure: My God is in control


His way is perfect; His way is perfect
Though I don't understand His wise and loving plan
His way is perfect; His way is perfect
Take my life and make a vessel purified
God makes no mistakes — His way is best


When the toils of life are come and my heart is worn with care
I faint 'neath the burden of a cross I cannot bear
When the joy has departed from my sorrow-stricken soul
This one thing I know for sure: my God is in control


His way is perfect; His way is perfect
Though I don't understand His wise and loving plan
His way is perfect; His way is perfect
Take my life and make a vessel purified
God makes no mistakes — His way is best


I WANT THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! :) :) :)


For the past years, the New Year'd somehow bring with it a dread, it being the last day of the holidays and it meant starting a new year of school the very next day. Last year especially, the New Year was nowhere near happy thanks to the R papers. Now that we have an eight-month or so holiday, there's no dread, but neither is there any excitement. We're leaving the shelters of school for the world out there............ After I decide to get job, that is.


Lam Lee, Cristal, Yuqian and I had our yearly New Year sleepover at my place yesterday. Before that, we went to Giant to buy loads and loads and LOADS of food and drinks. It was really a huge amount, considering that there were only the four of us lol. Anyway, met a number of people there. Jessie, Hannah, Melissa, Joo, Sharon and Huijin were at Giant too. And I met Dai Hongrui at Roxy Square! That super cute and super naughty KHS boy who attended the EZCO camp in 05 and 07! Yeah, I still recall how his attempt to do martial arts broke a chair in the AVT lol.


We headed to our usual countdown place - Changi Airport. Yeah, three-quarters of the Singapore population were probably in town. But that's the point. The airport was rather packed last night though. The queue outside Swensens was really long and we were afraid we'd end up spending the last day of 2008 and the first day of 2009 queuing lol. But thank God we got seats before 12! And yeah, like always, everyone started cheering when the clock struck 12. Happy New Year! :D


Feeling rather energetic now, probably cos I slept the longest. I'd have slept from 8 plus in the morning all the way till evening if not for Yuqian literally dragging me off the bed by my legs! But I went back to sleep after lunch while Yuqian and Lam Lee played Maple. =.=


No fanciful resolutions this year, since I've come to realise that talk is cheap and I've never ever fulfilled them. "I'm gonna study VERY HARD for the A's!" Did that happen? Hoho. My one and only - To live a life not for the world, but for God. It's not what I do, but what He does. :)


"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

Proverbs 3: 5-6

2009 will be good!

So here we are now, less than 21 hours to 2009. It's said that the two years of our JC lives will pass faster than any other, and sure they did. These two years came and went, in a few moments, no more student concessions, no more student meals, no more waking up at 7am every morning and dashing around in school uniforms preparing for school. Us survivors of JC, like it or not, are on our way to greater, tougher challenges ahead. We're gonna face the world outside!


Life in VJ hasn't been easy. The struggles, be it in academics, CO, or emotionally, have many a time made me long to give up. But thank God, for leading me through each and every obstacle. I honestly couldn't have gone through all this on my own, not to mention survive till today. Take the A Levels, undoubtedly one of the toughest periods of my life. Each day was a dread and a drag, and the two weeks leading to the exams were even worse. The worry of the exams being a few days away yet I was simply unable to sit down and really study, the daily fights with my parents, the fear that I'll have to retake it next year. I had this really big quarrel with my mum a few days before my first paper. I was totally crushed, just wanted to give up the whole exam. Yeah it scared my dad so much, he actually said sorry for everything (my dad never ever apologises). But I really thank God for that quarrel. If my mum hadn't said what she said, and I hadn't reacted the way I reacted, she wouldn't have realised how hurt I was by what she'd done, and I wouldn't have realised how much worry and disappointment I'd brought her by doing so badly in school. A couple of weeks back, she said to me, "As long as you love God, I will not worry about anything." I was truly touched by her words. Thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful mum, a mum who loves God and loves me so much, though I've never been half of a wonderful daughter.


Thank God for VJCO, for the teachers who were so kind to accept me through DSA despite my average playing, otherwise I could have only dreamt about entering VJ. Thank God for every setback, every challenging moment, for these enabled me to learn a lot, taught me to never take anything for granted.
EZCO Concert '07 - This experience really humbled me. I've always had this mindset, that I'd screw up as much as I wanted during rehearsals, but the actual concerts would turn out fine. This time, it didn't. My solo was a disaster, and Mr Tay even told me off on stage there and then, in front of the entire orchestra. Thank God for the glitch, taught me not to think so highly of myself.
SYF - I've never been so stressed up over a solo before, cos out of 10 times, I'd burst that note 9 times. It was worrying, I didn't want to be "the one that cost us the Honours", didn't want to disappoint the orchestra and the teachers. But God took away my fear that day, replaced it with a confidence, and I probably played my best on that day. We didn't get the Honours, everyone was dejected and disappointed cos we really gave it our all. But God has a purpose for everything and looking back, I'm so glad we only got a Gold. Had we gotten the GWH, I'm sure we'd simply have felt smug, rejoice, and go home. But the fact that we didn't get it, that was probably the reason that bonded us together. Who'd forget that the whole orchestra actually stayed back in the concert hall to listen to the judges' comments and ask questions? Who'd forget how we cried together after listening to Mdm Wee's talk? There's nothing more beautiful than doing everything as an orchestra, celebrating together, crying together.
Vhapsody '08 - Thank God for the awful fever on that day, otherwise I'd probably have thought, I played so well, I did great, I'm so wonderful, I, I, I... That fever made me realise that I could've gone through much hard work to prepare for the concert, I could've been a consistent player before that, but just by being off-form on the concert day could've cost me the concert. It made me realise that plans and preparations could be flawless, but ultimately it's what God does that matters. Throughout the day I prayed, and kept thinking of this verse, "Through all these we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us." God really answered my prayers, and I couldn't have asked for a better ending to the six years of my CO life. I wasn't the one who was strong and overcame my fever, God was the one who gave me the strength to play. The orchestra wasn't the reason for our success, God was. It's not what we do, but what God does that matters.
Also wanna thank God for these people who've been of such support. The exco, for tolerating my nonsense. Guanyue, for though I'm nowhere near a good SL, you guys are always so cooperative. Zilu (GENIUS), for taking time off your busy schedule to come back and perform cos we really needed Shengs, for all our havoc moments during practices (singing and laughing non-stop), rehearsals, the HK trip, and for teaching me Chem! Mingcong, for making practices less boring and for always asking me to study lol. Zongxing, for being such a responsible VP, yet never ever using your authority on me during sectionals (you're one really humble person), for being of such support, and for always helping me in my many problems cos I'm such a procrastinator. Cephia, for being my longest-known pal in GY! Amanda, for all the notes and SMS-es of encouragement. Hongming, for ponning as many lessons as I did (lol) so I'd have company in the CO room.


Thank God for DHSCO, I never fail to get inspired everytime I go back to listen to their practices and rehearsals. The one thing that sets this orchestra apart from every other orchestra isn't imba skills, but unity. Not every orchestra has the feeling of moving the audience, but DHSCO has. We're not known as a legendary orchestra for nothing! To my juniors, I'm so proud of each and every one of you, all of you have certainly grown over the years. Continue to work hard, DHSCO for double Honours next year! :) Yes, thank you Suyun, Jeenise and Rachel, for being my ever-supportive and cute juniors, who always attend my concerts!


Thank God for 07S34, a class which I always complain about for being too mugger-ish for my liking, but I've no doubt that life wouldn't be that enjoyable if I'd been placed in any other class. Thank God for every one of you, and thank God for very nice friends I met. Huijin, for studying with me (yeah, more like you MAKE me study lol), helping me with my work, being so encouraging, and always collecting my stuff when I go MIA. Jieying, for asking me to study, listening to my random complaints about random stuff, and for just being mad lol. Mei Ching, for all your notes of encouragement. Sharon, for always being there to listen, and for your sudden msgs, reminding me to press on.
Chia Wen - Thank you and thank God for you, for bringing me to church. Thank you for all your wise words of encouragement, for keeping me in prayer. Thank God for an awesome friend like you, and thank you so much for everything. :)
Audrey Han - Lol, I used to think that you were such a slave-driver, msg-ing me on my birthday not to wish me happy birthday, but to remind me to do my GP presentation. HAHA. But really, thank God for you. You've been such a blessing these two years I've known you, constantly msging me, reminding me to study hard, perservere and never give up, giving me notes and cards of encouragement. Thank God for always speaking to me through you, through Bible verses at times when I simply felt terrible. Thank you for having been of tremendous support all this while. I've learnt a lot from you, and I can't thank you enough. Thank God, really, for placing you in my life. :)


Wanna thank God for the following people as well.
Yuqian, Lam Lee, Cristal, Joanne - My great buddies from 4C! Thank God that despite us all being in different schools, we've been meeting up often the past two years. Other than Joanne, who's in the UK, but we still meet up everytime she comes back. And I know we'll continue to meet up in future! I'll never find a bunch of friends like you all, cos I don't think anyone does such retarded and random things like we do. Yes, we know it very well lol. Thank you for all the fun, joy and laughter, and for being such wonderful friends. Stay mad, always!
Xianghong - Thank you for always encouraging me, even though we seldom talk nowadays cos we're in different schools and all that. But thank you for never failing to write me cards and give me presents on special occassions. Yes, you're forever my great friend! :)
Jinghan - I'll never forget our Primary 6 days, where we made so much noise that our places were changed. We were in different secondary schools, but thank God that we're once again in the same school. Thank you for all your words of encouragement, and for never forgetting my birthday after all these years! And I'm just so happy that you've accepted Christ. Thank you, and thank God for you!
Salyonn - Got to know you through H1 Bio, and it hasn't been a long time, but just wanna thank you for being so encouraging all this while. The bible verses you asked me to read the day before A's, they really helped, a lot. Thank you for reminding me not to give up, and thank you for being such a fun person to talk to during boring Bio lessons!
James - Thank you for all those words of encouragement, for your extremely artistic cards. Not to mention your ever-encouraging blog entries. You're truly a role model, in your desire to serve God to your every ability.
Liyin - Thank God for you, for all the msgs and bible verses to encourage me.


And of course, thank God for this one person who's always been there for me in joyful times, in depressing times. Thank you and thank God for you, Valerie! Hey Killer, your name's even in bold! Haha. We've known each other for 3 years. Isn't a long period, but like you said, the 1500 mins you spent calling me is a testament to how deep our friendship is. You're truly a blessing to me, sharing so deeply in my joys and sorrows, I know I'm never going through anything alone. I can always count on you to make me feel better everytime I'm stressed or discouraged. Thank you for always reading passages off your devotion book to me, and for all the bible verses you gave me, that never failed to encourage me. It's amazing, that we've gone through two major exams together, the O's and the A's. I still remember you telling me about faith during the A's, and I really learnt a lot from you. Thank God for you, always there to listen, always there to encourage. Thank you, KILLER, for everything! :) :) :)


Of course, thank God for each and every one of you! All of you, whether I've known a long time, a not so long time, or have just known. Yes, you, from Singapore, USA or the UK. Thank you for being in my life, thank God for you!


These two years have indeed not been smooth-sailing. But thank God for all the trials, trials that humbled me, taught me valuable lessons, and made me stronger. Most importantly, I've learnt that being a Christian isn't about merely going to church on Sundays to warm the seats but rather, it's about Christ. I guess the thing about being a Christian from young is that I haven't really understood what is Christianity about, but I claim to be a Christian cos my parents are, cos my parents say that I have to go to church and read the bible. It's not about knowing, but believing.


Here's a song to end the year!


Who Am I - Casting Crowns


Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart


Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are


I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours


Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours


Sorry for this extremely long post, I just had to say all that. It's been such a valuable two years! Hurray, the sun has risen! Yeah, I took forever to type this.


Everything in this life can and will fail you. But when everything fails, it leads you to the unfailing love of Jesus Christ.


:)

The concert was good. An almost full-house audience (when only 300 out of 800 tickets had been sold last Sunday), roaring applause, encore shouts, positive response from friends who came down. But I admit, I was falling asleep on stage. The feeling of performing in a professional orchestra and performing in a school orchestra's just different. To me, that is. I knew that after this concert, most would pack up, take their bags, leave. Unlike after a school concert, everyone has to stay back to clear any rubbish, everyone has to wait for instructions before we're allowed to leave. Also, for the next CCO concert, there'll be many new faces, whether as newcomers or replacements. Whereas a school orchestra performs together for every concert, as one orchestra with the same people. To put it simply, there's no existing bond in the former. And sometimes, the more professional one gets, the more likely he/she will focus excessively on individual technique, neglecting the orchestra, forgetting the beauty when music is simply played from the heart. I've never really thought much about this the past few concerts with CCO, perhaps due to the initial excitement of "Wow, I'm performing alongside my teacher!" and whatnot. But after 6 years of performing with different people, different types of people, different groups of people, I've come to realise where I'll enjoy myself most - Not just on stage, but on stage with one aim, one sound.


My long-winded thoughts aside, I was rather annoyed that we had a three and a half hour break from after our rehearsal ended to the concert time. What were we gonna do for such a long time? They could have told us to come later. I actually half thought of hopping over for Vibe! Haha. I wonder how I spent that time, part of it was spent with Beverly, circling around the backstage 65038192653478 times, invading the Xian Yue area to disturb Youbao and Melody each time before deciding to sit down and chat with them lol. Another interesting thing. I think the female singers probably spent the entire afternoon doing their make-up, cos each time they changed their dresses, they'd change the colours of their eyeshadow. One of them had a different coloured shawl for each item, and the other had shoes with LIGHTS. Debbie and I had to keep reminding ourselves not to laugh on stage LOL!


I'm feeling a little... Lost. A friend told me that I'm giving myself a big headache over a small matter. She doesn't see it as a difficult decision. Well perhaps it isn't, but it is for me. Cos I'm not a mind person, I have an indecisive nature, I don't wish to possibly disappoint anyone. Fact is I simply hate making decisions. I'll choose to run away and throw dillemas out of my mind to stick to the status quo. I don't know why I'm thinking of it now, but, I still don't know what to do. And, maybe I'm indeed just causing trouble for myself.


It's not what I do, but what God does.


Guide me.

"With God on your side, it matters not who is working to keep life's good things from you, for you need nothing more than God's guidance and love to ensure you of the things that you are most worthy of."

Helen Steiner Rice

I had a wonderful two days! First, on my day with DHSCO yesterday. I planned to only go back for the dinner, but Huijing the current GY SL called me the night before asking me if I could conduct the ice-breaker session for the lower sec, cos the upper sec had to go for a rehearsal. So I went back in the afternoon (at the expense of much needed sleep) and taught them... Animal Farm! What's GY without our traditional game man! The Year 1s and 2s are a rather enthusiastic bunch, it was nice to see them so spontaneous during the games and all. It was fun mingling with them! Besides the fact that I felt really old haha. Oh, this Year 1 girl came to talk to me and I didn't realise who she was until she said that she attended the EZCO camp 3 years ago. Dorothea, from Coral Primary! Amazing how she still remembers and recognises me. The name definitely rang a bell, but not the face. :/ But it's not my fault, most primary school kids change after entering secondary school right? Haha. Yeah, I'll never forget the 4 girls from Coral Pri, for being such a noisy bunch and for some "wonderful" name they gave me. Lol.

Captain's ball after the ice-breakers, where Guanyue was OVERALL CHAMPION! We've lost the title for too many years, nice to get it back once again. It was unexpected, cos we lost to Percussion in the first round, but we won them in the finals 4-0. Yeah, three cheers for Guanyue! ;D

The dinner was great. Guanyue was on an ultimate high, cheering non-stop haha. I've concluded that the Year 1s this year had it so much better than when we were Sec 1s. Cos with such nice and thoughtful seniors (yes, me LOL) bringing plates and plates of food for them, they had more food than we did! Haha, the Sec 1s are always the saddest bunch cos by the time it's their turn to take the food, there's only gravy left lol. Anyway, we had a good life yesterday, with Kuei Fu and Linda bringing the whole dispenser of drinks, what looked like half the number of forks and spoons provided and an entire packet of serviettes to our table for our exclusive use. LOL! It was really fun, and it was great talking to the juniors again. :)

Went to watch the musical put up by GLCC today, Ashes for Beauty, with Shimin and Jieying. It was really nice, superb songs, soulful singing, awesome acting. Such apt alliteration. HAHA. Some parts were really touching, especially the ending. I love the piano parts! There was a great message after everything too, but the pastor was speaking a little too fast lol. Was about how people often look for happiness in the wrong places, in earthly possessions rather than in God. We all have this emptiness deep down, we all want to be happy. Thus sparking off an endless pursuit for greater wealth, academic excellence, leadership positions... All this in a bid to fill that void in us, to seek happiness. Quoting the pastor's example, Madonna, listed as the world's most successful female artiste, US$490million to her name, more number 1 singles than any female artiste, is not happy, is still struggling to find her true self.

Two artists were asked to draw a peaceful scene. One of them drew a beautiful countryside, with a sun to illuminate the green grass, picturesque farmhouse, farmer walking behind strong plow horses, making his field ready for spring planting. The other artist drew a rugged cliff, with a crazy storm, dark clouds and fierce streaks of lightning, an isolated tree, a little nest on the tree with two small birds sleeping soundly.

We want peace and happiness to surround us. We turn to achievements and material possessions to give us this peace and happiness we yearn for. But none of it will give us genuine happiness, none of it will give us an inner peace. True happiness is not a result of situations occurring according to our wishes. True happiness is an inner peace amidst situations occurring against our wishes. This inner peace is not found in worldly possessions, but in resting in the assurance of God's love.

Thank you all for the Christmas cards, beautiful messages, greetings and presents! I was shocked by Audrey and Yuqian's cards. Audrey's had an entire page of words typed out in, font size 8? And Yuqian's had in big, bright orange, "DEAR POXFACE". I was super amused when I saw that! But anyway, I've got back my good complexion! NO MORE POXFACE!!!!!! Hahahahaha!

This Christmas, may the Lord's love and grace toward us dominate our minds. For where would we be without Him? Blessed Christmas, everyone! It's indeed one of my favourite occassions! The other being my birthday of course. HAHA.

Went back to DHS this morning to practise for the concerto. It felt strange walking into a classroom for sectionals after not doing so for two years. And walking past the 4C classroom brought back memories of the havoc days, haha. I kinda felt like an alien watching sectionals, after all I hardly know the Sec 3s and I don't think I've seen the Sec 2s before. But Weicheng, Suyun, Rachel and Jeenise came in soon after and I nearly jumped for joy when I saw them. I haven't seen them in ages and I miss them loads!


The practice was not bad. It's gonna be really cool, the solo in front will be played by 10 people, each of us playing a line. We'll of course have to ensure that there'll be no trace of any transition between a player and the next such that the entire part sounds like it's played by one person. With each of us having our own unique tone and every possibility of our intonation going off, it's gonna be a huge challenge. But, we can do it! :)


Went to watch the Senior High's orchestral practice after that. They were practising their SYF pieces. I've learnt to appreciate the set piece for our year after hearing next year's set piece. Lol! It's great to be able to experience a DHSCO practice after so long. Although I wasn't playing, the feeling of sitting with my juniors once again and soaking in the MUSIC was just wonderful.


Thank God.

I just attempted to entertain myself by playing Shout to the Lord on the Xiao and I succeeded. It sounded so awful it's amusing LOL! Alright, I'm not that good at the xiao. It sounds nice on the dizi! :) And I've probably woken the entire Lorong H up, blasting Mu Min Xin Ge at 1 am. But I don't have a choice, there's practice tomorrow, I haven't touched that song in 2 years, and after months of not playing serious songs my tounging's all over the place. Yep, I'll be joining the Dizi concerto for DHSCO's annual concert next year! If I don't pull out halfway, that is lol. And I heard that we'll have the entire 110-strong orchestra as accompaniment. Wow!


Got to see the new DHS today! The new-old DHS haha. Well, what was there's still there and what wasn't, kinda appeared out of nowhere and my first impression was that, wow, it's HUGE. The roundabout area's really beautiful. But whoever designed everything, has no colour sense. There's this extremely weird maroon block, which apparently is the general office. When my mum drove in she was like, "Your school's so funny, it turned brown!" >.< And the blue and white don't go together at all, especially that wall outside the auditorium with a mixture of blue, darker blue and white, looks like someone just played tetris there. It's like a blend of new paint and old paint, looks rather funny. But well, other than the colour, it's cool cos it's big! Hahaha.


The practice today was, of course, boring. The singers came and they were taking so many pictures, I'm sure at least ten of them will show me sleeping. Or trying to. Oh, the practice was at the auditorium which hasn't changed one bit, and brought back a lot of memories. All our monday assemblies where 4C would make a mad dash in every week (a few of us rather), collecting exam scripts and most importantly, our graduation ceremony! And then it's fast forward to two years later. Ha. I never realised the stage was so small, then half of Xianyue and the entire Cello/Bass section were below the stage lol!


Ding Laoshi totally amused me today. He was explaining Kelvin's absence, "He can't book out of camp today. Cos he has to catch Osama!" My goodness lol. And he's always walking around during practices with his suona, I don't understand why he's so busy but yes, he is. Lol! Not to mention that he's always protesting under his breath about funny decisions (they made amendments to the scores again), but loud enough for our whole section to hear and laugh HAHA.


Ticket sales for the CCO concert are bad. We've been asked to advertise intensively, be it through Facebook or whatever. But I'm pretty sure it'll be a full-house eventually. I mean, it's always like that. Anyway, I didn't break my promise, I'm intending for this to be my last CCO concert, not my last concert! Hahahaha.


My dad doesn't allow me to dye my hair! :(


I like the diving game on MSN.

Woooh I received my first Christmas card today, from Xianghong! The little good friend card's so cute! Yeah, my good friend always. :)


Speaking of Christmas cards, it's rather creative to write Christmas messages on serviettes isn't it? So don't be surprised yeah.


My eyes hurt now, have been bridging on Viwawa for so long. And Nicholas made me count 100 reindeers on the screen! Zzz... Oh, I'm gonna level up soon! Hahahaha.


CCO practice tomorrow... I'm sure it's gonna be exciting. I so badly wanna skip it but I think I shouldn't, since it's the last practice. Well, it better be the last practice, I heard that they wanna add some more practices. Which I'll probably cook up some excuse not to attend heheh. Anyway, looking on the bright side, it's at the new DHS, so I can ask my mum to pick me up yay!


Nice song I was listening to when I was trying to get to sleep last night. This morning, rather.


In Better Hands - Natalie Grant


It's hard to stand on shifting sand
It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night
You can't be free if you don't reach for help
You can't love if you don't love yourself


There is hope when my faith runs out
Cause I'm in better hands now


It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now


I am strong all because of You
I stand in awe of every mountain that You move
Oh I am changed, yesterday is gone
I am safe from this moment on


There's no fear when the night comes 'round
I'm in better hands now


It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now


It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent though I know it isn't true
It's like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room


So take this heart of mine there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now
I'm in better hands now


VALERIE MISSES ME! And they're inviting me to lunch with them at NUH one day, cool huh! :D

I feel like my eyeballs are rolling all over the place, after staring at the screen for so long playing games. Anyway, after ten days of rotting in my shell together with the pox, I saw the light! Literally. Hahaha. It was almost weird to feel the sun's rays. Yeah, you know, the sun doesn't really like me, it rises shortly after I hit the sack and sets shortly after I wake up. So, feels good to finally step out of my house and breathe in non-pox-infected air. Hahaha.


I've not fully recovered, but I just had to go to parkway to get some stuff before Christmas. Went there with Yuqian, Lam Lee and Cristal. We were joking that they'll all get chicken pox for a second time. Lol! Ha. My mum thought that I was gonna get stoned by the public, but I didn't get any weird looks! Cos honestly, I just look like a skinny, innocent soul with not-so-good complexion. Not to mention I was on the verge of melting inside my jacket, its sole purpose to cover the random spots on my hands. Yeah, I actually look pretty normal. Not to myself, cos I'm still displeased with the condition of my face, but to the rest of the world. Wahaha.


DHS has moved back to Tanjong Rhu! No more travelling across the green line to get to Buona Vista, yay! I haven't seen the new campus, but soon. It's pretty interesting, the maroon building, rooftop tennis court with a hole in the wall so the ball can just fly all the way down to the basketball court, the mega huge CO room (yeah!), and so on! Yuqian, Lam Lee and Cristal went after our trip to parkway but I didn't go, I was way too hot and tired and uncomfortable and I didn't wanna be gallivanting around. And that reminds me, I still haven't collected my O Level cert. Guess they've already thrown it away?


Not going to watch Twilight with Jieying and Shimin tomorrow. :( But it's okay, we can go to Seoul Garden after I recover... To cook eggs HAHA. Gosh, it sounds impossible and scary, but I think I've lost weight! And it's making me sooooo sad. What with the first few days without any appetite, after that not being able to eat so many things, and me being such a picky eater, heh, I'm not surprised. Ah I wanna do so many things after I recover. I wanna play basketball, I wanna go to ECP and play frisbee, I wanna eat lots of things that I haven't been able to eat! Any interested sponsors for my Operation Gain-Some-Kilos? Come on, be kind to a patient. Otherwise when I disappear from the surface of the earth, all of you will miss me so much. :)


Wohoho, after days of frequent trips to the mirror attempting to kill the pox on my face by glaring at the spots but not succeeding, I think, I'm on the way to recovering my complexion! Hopefully there won't be any scars, otherwise it'll be payback for laughing at others when they complain about pimples (yeah Killer, you know this best hahaha). Oh well, at least there're signs of healing, thank God!


Pray, pray and pray that everything, everyone, will be fine.

I SAW REAL SNOW FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!


Through a webcam HAHA. Yeah Amos was kind enough to let me have a look at what it's like in Canada, snowing and all. The weather must be really beautiful there, with snow and bright sunlight! And Amos looks really different, from when I last saw him in person, five years ago? Time flies, yeah.


I think that the world is so small. Yesterday, Joanne told me that Shirlene lives next door to her in the school hostel or something. And Valerie told me just now that there's this girl from RJC doing the hospital attachment with her and Audrey, and she's from GLCC. I think the name's Patricia? Cos Valerie was talking about my chicken pox. Heh. Oh, I promised Valerie that I'll blog about this. The killer was the only one wearing a suit and high heels, which went tapping here, there and everywhere! HAHAHAHAHA! =D


I asked my mum when'll the pox disappear, to which she replied, "It may take three weeks." *FAINTS* But I'm not gonna believe that. Wahaha. I think my face looks better now, hurray! And I realise, I haven't bought Christmas cards yet. Don't blame me if I start sending out New Year cards instead. Roar, annoying pox.


The reason I'm up so late, I was waiting to take my last pill of the day. Honestly, I'm gonna develop a phobia for medicine after this. One more day to finish my medication! And goodness knows how many more days before the pox disappears sigh. Oh well.


If I could, I'd teleport over to Canada to enjoy the snow! But I can't, so it's dreamland for me. Heheh.

Haha. Wanted to share this a few weeks ago, but I forgot. It's part of an interesting email, the beauty of mathematics.


Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been in situations where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 101%? What equals 100% in life?


Here's a little mathematical formula that might help answer these questions.


If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z


is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26


H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11=98%


K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5=96%


A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5=100%


L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4=101%


Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that while hard work and knowledge will get you close and attitude will get you there, it's the Love of God that will put you over the top!


Cool huh? There's more in front, but I'm not gonna type strings of numbers in my entry. Hahaha. Take care everyone, God bless! (:

Yay, Siqian just sent me The Potter's Hand! It's such a nice song. And guess what, it's in G Major!!!! I played it on my Dizi a few days ago using that key and yay, it's the correct key! Hahahahaha.


Alright, just a random post to express my happiness. I'm still angry with my chicken pox. And Huijin laughed at me for only getting it now, saying that I'm childish. HEH I know people who haven't got it before! And I'm like super mature can! Hmph, after I recover, I'm gonna do sooooooooo many things. Getting out of my house is on the top of the list. Bah.


On a happier note, I don't have to go for the CCO practice tomorrow! Not like I was planning to go in the first place but the pox gives me a legitimate reason. Ha, Zheng Laoshi will have nothing to say about my sudden disappearance. Hmm, I actually have this very bad feeling that I lost my scores. I was using them as rough papers to do my SAT the other day HAHA. Oh well, I'll find them someday. Wahaha.


I WILL SURVIVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh, I threw my temper just now, feeling quite bad about it now. There was one whole big tray of popiah in my house and I was so happy to see it but my mum said that I couldn't eat it cos of some stuff in the vegetables, not sure what's inside either. Yeah, I was suddenly really angry cos there're so many things I can't eat. No chicken, no egg, no bean-related stuff, no beef, no milo, no seafood.......... Chicken pox, I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But not like it's anyone's fault, so yep, really shouldn't have lost my temper hee.


Just watched Survivor, and I just love this season so much, there's no end to the number of surprises! Yay, Sugar and Matty for the win now! :D :D


Day 4 of pox invasion, doesn't look any better, many many pills left, a long way to go..............


Through God's grace, I will survive this! :)

I'm back from the GLCC Uth Consecration Camp. Yeah, I'm supposed to be back only on thursday, but life is always amazing and full of surprises. Amusing or shocking it may sound, I've got chicken pox. It's so unbelievable. I've been having an on-and-off fever since saturday night and a few spots appeared on my hands and neck yesterday morning, but Kong said they'd go away. It wasn't until I was bathing that I realised my whole body had the spots, and Siqian and Amelia said that it's most likely chicken pox, that I began to have the slightest suspicion. Prior to that it totally did not occur to me that it could be chicken pox. Yeah, I haven't got it before, but it's just so... Incredulous. Kong kinda confirmed it was chicken pox after that.


Ian came to tell me that I had to go home, and at that instant I could feel my heart sink all the way down. Yes, of course I wasn't staying there to spread it to all the innocent victims. Throughout the whole of last night I was really down, questioning why, why, why did this have to happen during my first ever church camp. I cried for a rather long time, couldn't accept the fact that this had to happen. The decision to go for the Uth camp was tough in the first place, with it clashing with the KPC camp. When I made up my mind, I did not regret it and though I went into the camp feeling a little apprehensive, a large part of me was really eager to find out what God has in store for me and the answer to where I truly belong. So I was truly disappointed that such a major disruption had to occur. But yeah, as Chia Wen said, the camp isn't everything, God has a purpose for everything. I have to trust Him.


Wanna thank Siqian and Catherine for calling and msging me last night. I was really touched, especially since I was feeling so miserable. Wanna thank everyone who has shown me concern during the camp over my fever too, Jean, and everyone else. All I pray for now is that I did not spread it to anyone, Jean especially, who had quite alot of contact with me. Lord, please watch over her and those who haven't got it before.


Shall talk about my first (half) of a church camp. My group's called JOY hahaha. Our cheers are really cute, and the people are just awesome. Nice and friendly and entertaining. Just look at the youthful energy the three 12-year-olds in my small group have. They remind me of the EZCO kids, but slightly more mature lol. The games were fun, with mud (eww), flour, running everywhere, bananas, soaked toilet paper, R&R with Siqian, taking photographs while everyone was frantically trying to whack some balloons, and much more! Hahaha. Yeah, I really enjoyed myself. But what I looked forward to the most were the messages. I think Pastor Chee Keen's a great pastor, he's really passionate. What hit me the most was his message on the first night, the paralysis of unbelief. I remember asking my mum quite recently, why is it that there are people who faithfully go to church every sunday, never fail to pray and read the Bible daily, yet do not behave like a christian at all? Guess it's about the heart, not about the mind. Not how much one knows that dictates how much one believes, but how much one believes that dictates how much one knows. It's not about hearing God's word, but experiencing it.


Argh, I'm itching all over, and I've got tons of medicine to take. Never before have I seen such a huge collection of tablets! I'm so tired of swallowing the big fat pills sigh. And goodness, I look horrible with all the spots on my cute face! I feel like smashing all the mirrors in my house but I can't resist making frequent trips to look at my disfigured face. Gross. Must NEVER NEVER scratch my face or I'll be disfigured for life! Ah I wanna mummify myself!!! Ha but thank God it's chicken pox, not some terminal skin illness.


I was looking at the camp booklet just now, and suddenly felt really sad again. All the blank pages, unfilled reflections, no chance to sing Make Me Like You, Lord, no proper conclusion... The camp song Believe keeps playing in my head now, makes me miss the camp even more! But yeah, I shall be with everyone mentally haha. Thank God for the good weather today, cos they were out tracting at East Coast Park. :)


Believe


Oh God You're amazing
You see right through out hearts
Jesus, You're so loving
You came to die for us
How could it be
How could You die for me yeah? So...


My mind, my body, my soul
Will gladly bow to You
The Word, the one living Word
I base my life upon
One life I surrender
I live my life for You
I believe you, my only God


Your Word everlasting
Will never pass away
Its light in the darkness
Will light my path always
Help me oh Lord
Help me to live for You now. So...


My mind, my body, my soul
Will gladly bow to You
The Word, the one living Word
I base my life upon
One life I surrender
I live my life for You
I believe you, my only God


Alright, I'm feeling much better now. (It's been 6 hours since I started blogging lol). It's my regret not being able to finish the camp, but it's not up to me to decide. Just wanna thank God for letting me experience half the camp, with wonderful people, messages, games, and food (though I wasted alot, alot of food). It's definitely been a refreshing experience for me, wanna thank every single person in the camp for that. I gotta look beyond the camp, the missed messages, the unfinished camp booklet, at the greater message, God's grander plan for me. I do not know what it is now, but I will in the future.


I apologise to everyone I ignored online last night, wasn't in any mood to talk hee...


One person I'd really like to thank. Yeah, thank you Chia Wen, for inviting me to the camp, for bringing a sleeping bag for me which took up half of your bag space and I only used it for one night (remember to disinfect it hehe), for helping me so much when I was not feeling well, for being such a fantastic group leader! Everytime I see you putting in your heart, soul and every ounce of energy into every game without a single word of complaint about any pain or injury, yeah, it impresses me greatly. Cos I'll never have that kind of perseverance. But please take care of your knee! Haha. Your unwavering desire to serve God, to commit all to Him, to bring more people to accept Christ, it's truly inspiring. Thank you so much for everything, and thank God for you! (:


Thank God for my first half a church camp, thank God for my parents, thank God for everyone's concern, thank God that my appetite has returned, thank God for my two days of Joy! God is good, all the time. :)


And finally, after 8 hours, I'm done.

Roar my fever's back! Really, of all times. But God sustained me through the concert with a fever the other time, so He'll sustain me through tonight too!


Off to look for panadol............ Zzz

Whoa, I'm feeling quite horrible. Had a fever last night, and I slept till about 3 plus this afternoon. I think the fever's gone but I'm still feeling super weak and all, and I can't eat! Argh. The camp's tomorrow... Hopefully I'll feel alright by then!


Speaking of the GLCC camp, I feel excited, yet a little afraid. Cos I've never been to a church camp in my life, yeah, explaining my mixed feelings haha. And I don't wanna go to camp feeling like that tomorrow! But yeah, God will provide!


On a random note, it took me six years to realise that I don't like CO music. But I love the Dizi. How ironic. Haha. Yeah, the reason why I'm always playing random contemporary songs.


My dad wants the area at the foot of my bed packed by tonight. And I have yet to pack for camp. *Moan* Oh yeah, thanks Vivian, for letting me kope so many things from you. A minimart alright HAHA.


Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God. (:


Till thursday!

He Will Come And Save You


Say to those who are fearful hearted, "Do not be afraid;
The Lord your God is strong with His mighty arm
When you call out His name"
He will come and save


He will come and save you, He will come and save you
Say to the weary one, "Your God will surely come"
He will come and save you
He will come and save you, He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him, you will arise again
He will come and save you


Say to those who are broken hearted, "Do not lose your faith;
The Lord your God is strong with His loving arms
When you call out his name"
He will come and save


Thank God! Thank God for Chia Wen, Catherine, Siqian! For praying for me, sharing the gospel, being happy for me... God is really amazing. What can I say, praise God. (:


Went to sit for the SAT today. Reached ACJC at 7.10 when we were supposed to be there by 7.45 and just when I thought that I was super early, I saw Melvin already there. Lol! Yep, someone to talk to while waiting for Chia Wen. Heh. I decided that I'm not gonna put myself through another SAT. Gosh, the number of comprehension passages I read, I'm pretty sure nothing went into my brain. Not to mention that I was happily writing stories about Darwin's Theory of Evolution, Survivor and the Amazing Race. Don't ask me how, I was pro enough to link all that. Ha. Ha.


Was listening to the conversation between my dad and uncle during dinner just now. And I was just "showing off" to Vivian about mastering the ability of "looking uninterested, remaining silent, acting stupid" in front of my relatives. I just know that I have this image of living in my own world. But then again, these adults always talk about the same things. Just a few moments ago, my dad was talking about my PSLE and O Levels. I'm past being irritated, I'm just, well... People improve, people slide. It's not such a great deal, is it?


I've got quite a lot to say, but perhaps it's the lack of sleep, my brain's just zombified now. Anyway, was thinking of quite a lot of stuff last night. The past two years, how they really flew by so quickly, and I really mean REAL QUICK. My toughest two years, without a doubt, but probably the period I learnt the most. Last year, I was fearing that I'd be retained, today, I've graduated (at least, I consider myself graduated). I can't believe I got through the two years, can't believe I'm here now, can't believe I survived the tormenting A level period. But it's a fact, here I stand, a soon-to-be nineteen-year-old about to set foot into a whole new world. The future is uncertain, but God's grace has sustained me, and He will continue to guide me on this journey.


"I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will take them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them."

Isaiah 42: 16

Rejoice, there's no CCO practice tomorrow! I'm not going next week either. That makes 3 practices, 10 plus songs? Lol, this must be one of the rare few concerts that besides Dream of the Red Chamber (only one part), I'm clueless about the titles of the rest of the songs. Doesn't really matter anyway. But great, this is the best time to lose my court shoes. Anyone has size 5 to lend me?

The best decision. (:

Happy birthday Xianghong! :) All of a sudden I'm reminiscing the good old Sec 2 days, where we went from knowing nuts about each other, to being really good friends. And it's a little regretful that we haven't really talked to each other in a long long time. But it's alright, thankfully for CCO (the only saving grace I think) haha. We must go out soon alright! Meanwhile, have a very special eighteenth, I
know it'll be an awesome affair! Warmest wishes! :)


As the Genius rightly put it, I can totally live the British time zone in Singapore right now. For the past few days, I've been sleeping at 6 plus am and waking up at 5pm! Incredible, huh? I already said that I'm nocturnal, and I need a night job. But for now, the only night job I can think of is working at the night safari. Now what if the animals escape? Hohoho.


Love Blossoms 2 is really funny, with the veterans' fantastic acting. I've been watching Crime Busters on Mobtv (HAHA) too, and that's another funny show. Yeah, quit laughing at me for supporting Singapore dramas, I just love the no-brainers. But really, give me my reality shows and I'll be more than happy. Too bad they're all ending! Speaking of that, Ken and Tina, please win TAR 13 and save that show!


"The earth is the Lord's, and everything in it."

1 Corinthians 10: 26

All that I have, is given by Him. He can give me everything, He can take it all away. Is there any point in wanting to gain the world? Let me learn to accept.


"I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul."

Yay, I've changed my phone! Decided to get the N79. Thanks everyone, for your opinions! But I'm just special. Hahaha. Oh, my N73 was in such a bad condition that the staff didn't allow me to trade it in. Bloated battery, cracks everywhere, missing button... But of course. I'm actually happy that I get to keep my phone. After testing my patience for more than two years, there's a bond you know! Lol.


It's almost 4am, the whole house is asleep, other than my computer and me. Ha. That's why I love the holidays! December, please don't fly by too fast! Look for a night job, anyone? Lol.


Here's a song, for you and me.


Broken Radio - Jesse Malin
I was thinking about another time
Still in my mind
When I used to know a little girl
High on this world


Your baby loves you more than you know
Raised on rivalry and rock'n roll
Moving to the motor City soul
She lets go
On the radio


Well we never had a lot of cash
But we loved those kids
Some say that she missed the boat
But she just burned the bridge


The angels love you more than you know
Raised on robbery and rock'n roll
Moving to the Motor City soul
She takes hold
On the radio


Stomachache Sundays
And books we never read
Well I was hoping one day
We might meet again


She used to talk about astrology
She was born in June
She danced with strangers and celebrities
Empty stars and the full moon
I was thinking about the universe
For what its worth
Or the one about the Phoenix bird
That died and then returned


The angels love you more than you know
Raised on robbery and rock' n roll
Moving to the Motor City soul
Moving to the Motor City soul
Sometimes I see her face
When there's no place to go
On the radio
On the radio
On the radio


Love the melody. The angels love you more than you know. (: