i was feeling really emo 2 days ago. was really infuriated by some co stuff. at night, i thought about some other stuff. like all of a sudden, lots of things came to mind. the kindness i received from so many people all the while.. and i just felt so touched that i cried. what's more, my cousin delivered a slice of cake to me. family is just so warm. i'll never ever feel so sheltered and loved anywhere else. heh. alright, that was a random thought. but ya, I LOVE MY FAMILY! =D


these 2 days at school were really fun! i've no idea why too. felt that i've been enjoying myself lately HAHA. we did aerobics for PE yesterday. it was sooooo funny. seeing everyone looking so comical. oops. haha.


today was declared a half day! due to college (prisoner) day tmr. but there were no cheers as everyone already knew there's gonna be a half day. haha went to kbox with sharon, joo, mingyao and amelia. but before that we went to the guitar room to slack, waiting for 1 plus to come so that we could catch the 2pm slot. we churned out beautiful music! kinda fun fiddling with the tambourine and the other percussion-like instrument which i dunno what it's called. haha. kbox was fun fun FUN! haven't been there in AGES. sang from 2 to 7pm. oh man.. i feeeeeeel good~ lol. i think we all (yes me included LOL) have such nice voices! LOOOOL!!!!! haha so funny. we were so reluctant to go when the time was up. the kbox guy had to keep coming in to chase us out. and when he disappeared, we hurriedly ran in again. but he appeared again after a while and we finally left. HAHA. ahh i wanna go again!!!!!!!!!!!


roar. i have yet to come to a decision on which subject to drop. or whether to drop at all. HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!


locking up college day tmr. i'm sure it's gonna be a FUN and EXCITING experience! being cooped up in the LT like chickens is just so pleasurable, dun you envy us! lol.


"Humility is estimating your worth under the might of God, being aware ofyour weaknesses, not being conscious of others' strengths in comparison to yours."


ruth, step up but be humble! :D

haha, 'tis a little late but.. soccer inter-house on thurs was a blast! we initially lost to phoenix and pegasus (coz i wasn't there hence the absence of noble aura). then we won ursa (my bio remedial ended and i went to play) LOL! nah, it's EVERYONE. i felt so brave! i actually went to attempt to snatch a ball from 2 ursa-ians lol. normally i wouldn't care. aye but my soccerphobia still exists haha. yup we drew with lynx. and the most exciting match of all.. WE WON DRACO!!!!!! yeah, draco who won all five houses but WE WON THEM!!!!!! oh man.. that was one nerve-wrecking match. we all cheered like anything when cheryl managed to bring the ball to our side. after a few attempts, xiangling scored the goal! we totally went nuts! and there were so many moments when draco almost scored but thanks to our IMBA goalkeeper denise, the balls din go in! and......... WE WON!!!!!!! whee CHEERS FOR AQUILA!!!!! :D :D :D


thank you to the kind soul who rewarded the soccer plays with the giant stick! oops, hannah's so gonna kill me for still not knowing who gave the giant stick even after she dragged me to the house board to read the message. hehe.


went to see mdm wee again today. she's really, really, really, really REALLY nice man! sigh, i feel so guilty for not even doing anything. ROAR. heheh, she said that mr teo (our math tutor) told her that there's hope for my math! yay! =D


stayed back in school tilll 4pm today coz the HOD of mother tongue, also the head of performing arts, wanted to see students from the performing arts who DSA-ed or appealed and din do well. erm yes, that's me. she wanted to see xingzhong, tingkai and me from co. 3 of us waited outside the HOD office and had to go in one by one. for a moment it felt like some caning session. i was the last to go in. man, i'm glad i got prepared by ms tan (the HOD)'s candidness or i'd have fainted on the spot. she's really fierce! here's some parts of her conversation with me which were rather.. interesting.


ms tan: how did you do for both your maths in the O levels?
noble: A math 1, E math 2
ms tan: what a weirdo
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ms tan: what do you do on the internet the whole day?
noble: post my (valuable) opinions on a reality tv forum
ms tan: post post post, your english very good lah huh?!
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ms tan: can you please stop using your internet?
noble: okay, i'll cut down
ms tan: (yells) NO!!!!! STOP IT!!!!!
noble: *shocked* okay, okay................
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gosh, a third of my school life is spent seeing teachers. i'll be able to count how many lockers are there outside the staff room soon.


hee. i was bored and hungry just now so i attempted to boil some eggs. oh man, call me a genius, they turned out so nice! yeah, that was my first attempt boiling eggs (now stop staring at me for not knowing how to boil eggs, i know now!)


and there leaves one huge decision to be made. WHICH SUBJECT SHOULD I DROP TO H1?!?!?!?!?!?! advice, please!

YYYYAAAAAAWWWWWWWNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sleepy.


a certain L------------- niao-ed me again yesterday. oh wow, so surprising. not. yup he told us about our average mark for chem in comparison with the S3's, and he said we're second. then he went on, "if ruth had gotten an S instead of a U, we would have been first!" OMG i'm sooooooooooo sorry, it's all my fault, i din mean to mar some reputation, please forgive me =( =( =(






































-_-"


LOL! i din feel anything, but some ppl were rather angry about that. HAHA and jieying did sth really amusing, which shan't be mentioned here. lol. anyway, it's not gonna daunt me. (please, i dun even listen to......................) oh no, i din say anything, dun accuse me of not listening to my teachers. but really, writing an econs essay's probably more exciting then listening to the same discouraging words over and over again. eh, what discouraging words? no, i din say by whom. and some ppl really aren't worth my time. hey, i din say some teachers yea. oops i'm wasting too much of my precious blog space for this. time to move on, read a book, watch a movie..................


guess what, i din pass anything! other than GP, which isn't really, you know, counted. haha! but i'm actually rather proud of my GP marks. hoho! din expect to get a rather high mark for the compre. and a shocking 6.5/8 for AQ. when up till now i dun really know how to write an AQ. i dun even recall what i wrote heh. speaking of GP.................. mdm wee spoke to me yesterday! i think she's one of the more observant teachers i've seen. she's observed (very correctly too) that co's a rather important factor in my life. and she knows that by asking me to study for my own good, it's not gonna work. yup so she advised me.. use vjco as a motivation! haha. for vjco, for the end-of-year concert. mdm wee's sooooooooo nice! i was kinda touched by her words yesterday hee. and sometime during the night, she sent me an sms saying "jia you!" wahhhhhhhhhh......... how many teachers would actually bother doing sth like that? haha yeah and i told her i passed my GP, and she said it's a good start! hopefully, yeah. thank you mdm wee! :D


it was freezing cold in LT 2 today during chem lecture. hmm why arh? >.<>"i can teach you how to toss a frisbee, but i can't teach you chemistry." - the noble one. LOL!!!!!

for some reason, the past few days of school were rather enjoyable. lol! hee. mr quek came on wed for our co practice but he din conduct dazu. instead, he talked about his experience in switzerland and how he wanted to give up coz it was just too difficult. he went on to talk about co music in s'pore, how we aren't really taught properly and all that. hmm, i must say, i kinda agree. he also showed us a video about a few orchestras in south america. i was really touched by the part where they showed mute children singing by sign language. their passion for music and perseverance should be much admired!


we played frisbee for PE yesterday! haha hannah and the rest said that the way i catch the frisbee is like plucking stars. LOL. coz i'll usually just wait for the frisbee to come nearer, then reach out my hand and catch it. i'm just not used to using two hands, maybe i should try next week. haha they're damn pro. they can actually use enzymes to describe me catching the frisbee. those facts about lock-and-key, induced fit..................... lol. frisbee is rather fun!


audrey han ROCKS man. like totally. i'm supposed to pass a copy of my action plan (the sure-fail one) to mrs lim and i haven't. mrs lim walked past us just now and audrey reminded me softly about the action plan, and i whispered back to ask her not to talk about it lol. and then she said out loud, "hi mrs lim! ruth owes you her action plan!" of course, mrs lim started nagging me for it. but the moment she entered the class, i think she switched her attention to sth else *phew*. audrey's so mean! such betrayal is not to be condoned. LOL! =P


haha! mei ching asked me about my results just now. and she was rather shocked lol. she kept insisting that i dun care! haha. i think i do care. it's just that i dun do anything about it. hmm. but that's kinda equivalent to not caring eh? aye. i've calculated, and i need to get D's for promos to promote. yay, ruth rocks!


seems like there's a new rubik's cube craze going around in school now. so many ppl were playing with it during bio lecture! and everytime i saw someone struggling with it, i was soooooooooo tempted to go complete it for them! yes, being the noble one that i am, i've mastered the techniques of completing a rubik's cube long ago! lol.


big news, valerie has learnt the art of sms-ing during lessons. she msg-ed me during econs lecture yesterday and the msg said, "pig...flip your notes." lol! coz it had been 20 minutes and my notes were still not flipped open. that just proves i'm too attentive during lectures that i do not flip my notes! HAHA. speaking of valerie, she came to my house just now. she happend to be at the church really near my house, so she came by for a while. heheh. and yes.........


HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE!!!!!!!!! have a good year ahead being your usual killer/maria/piggish/psychotic self! and i know you'll be enjoying the times of spying on me during lectures and gossiping about me with audrey. not forgetting wanting to help me draft out a THREE-PAGE action plan. lol. yeah, have a SUGARY SWEET SEVENTEENTH! RUTH ROCKS!!!!!! (being the bimbo that you are, i know you'll love this colour. LOL)

just returned from the co syf presentation. lol, it was okay in general. haha we thought that it wasn't compulsory to wear court shoes, so majority of the vjco were in our varied kinds of shoes. turned out that when i looked around, everyone wore court shoes except for us! it was a little embarrassing LOL. but i'm sure no one would bother about my striking shoe-laces. other than kelvin ho and juliana, who kept commenting on them! haha. oh yes, i'm sooooo lucky that the moment i was on stage, my di mo broke! i think it's the first time in my life that this ever happened during a concert. whoa, luckily juliana asked me to use skotch tape, reminding me that i had lots of them lol.


we had the inter-house soccer just now. aquila vs. aquila. it was amelia and i with some other seniors against hannah, joo and some of the S33s. the whole game was spent screaming! when someone kicked the ball, a bunch of them would start screaming. and the ball stayed permanently at just one half of the field! hannah was the other team's goalkeeper and everytime she kicked the ball, someone from our team would get it but kick it out. then it would start from hannah again, and this action repeated for sth like an eternity. LOL. finally, hannah's team decided to let us score a goal. coz apparently we're supposed to be the strong team (how can, when there's me!) and the team which would advance. so hannah stood like outside the goalpost and our team scored a goal. whoa, the way we played..... i got tired coz of laughing, not of playing lol! i think the referee was rather pissed off. haha and johnathan and zixuan saw our match, and after that they told me, "wah, your match was so interesting!" -_-"


okay, i'm like currently hounded by every single teacher who knows me! sort of, anyway. mr lim wants to speak to me again, mr teo wanna speak to me, mdm wee wanna speak to me. but mr teo and mdm wee were really very encouraging! hee. mrs lim spoke to me just now, for a whole of 35 minutes! she was asking me lots of WHYs, and made me draw out an action plan. in which i filled in, "cut down on afternoon naps, limit usage of internet to 2 hours a day........" and she went, "WAH after cutting down your internet, you still can use it for 2 hours? i must say you have ALOT of time, considering you're always rushing off for co. why are your grades still like that?" lol. then she asked why i could excel in dizi and not my studies, is it coz due to my "natural talent" for dizi, i take everything for granted, thinking i do not have to work hard as long as i have the talent. heh, that's one point i shoold go reflect on. lol.


yay, reporting to school at 9.15am tmr! but dammit, EoM's due tmr and i haven't STARTED. spell s-t-e-a-m-e-d.

yesterday was a cool day coz the combined co ppl were dismissed at 12.10pm! speaking of which, i've ponned thurs' lectures for 3 weeks already. i'm like totally clueless about which topic the lecturer's doing now. haha. audrey told me that if i were as "imba" as i was at captain's ball, i would have done very well in my studies. yeah, i wish! haha.


the rehearsal was boring, boring, BORING. everything's so disorganised and messy, ended up the schedule had to be pushed back. hai, my show. haha ms meta was beside me watching the other items, and she commented on dhsco's discipline. yup so i told her quite alot of stories from mr tay to dhsco to the members and quite alot of stuff. ms meta's so nice! hahaha. hmm on the way back to school from SCH, our bus broke down. i had a rather nice nap on the bus while we waited for another bus. and i missed my show again. SIGH.


our group did our PW prototype today! took some nice videos, but i'm too lazy to upload them. but it was really fun, getting the class involved in all the acting and guessing and stuff. hannah was totally hilarious! LOL!


i guess mrs lim likes me too much that she had to SPECIALLY ask me how i thought i'd do for bio. my reply was an S. i wanted to say a U, but i figured that she'd probably never end her questions. yeah she asked me a fair amount of questions, which i tried my best to answer, praying that she'd move on to lessons. heh. she went on to ask when would CO end lol. and that she hasn't seen me in a long time. doing work. lol. zzzzzzzz....... but really, she's a rather nice teacher. in the sense that she doesn't show bias, and she picks on us (me) coz she wants to help us (me) and not coz she wants to embarass anyone. hee.


we got back our math paper yesterday. mr teo called us up one by one! it was kinda scary. not to mention that i had to wait for 23 ppl before i could get my paper. haha. but i was sitting there very calmly. haha huijin said that i'm always so calm, coz no matter what i get, i wouldn't care. "fail, nvm. get A also nvm." LOL. it wasn't entirely coz i din care. i just din have a single trace of confidence in me. how to, when i practically learnt everything the night before, trying to cram as much stuff as possible into my limited memory space. plus the fact that i left out a few chapters and some of my notes are well, rather clean. neither was i totally helpless like i was for chem, where there was every possibility of getting a single digit. for my math, i just had to let it be. like pray that whatever i left out din take up too many marks and whatever i did i din make too many careless mistakes. hee.


mr lim returned our chem papers today. before that, he said sth about the mcq. "by pure guessing, if someone shades all A, he can get 6 out of 25 marks. but this student only got 4/25.........." guess who. haha. but i was prepared for this, from the moment i opened the question booklet. my section B was equally screwed. there was this question on stoichiometry which totally owned the other structured questions though. coz the only topic i REALLY know is stoichiometry. mr lim read out our marks one by one. and of course, he asked to see me. he basically told me the same things. me saying goodbye to vj at the end of the year if i flunk my promos, dropping a subject to H1, thinking that i won do well for bio etc.


no will, no motivation, no self-discipline, can't force myself to study. yeah, that's not an excuse. it's in the attitude. argh, sometimes i do question myself what's my aim for the future. it seems like i'm some wandering soul who entered vj without a reason. more often than not i find myself wondering why did i actually dsa into vj in the first place. just coz it's a school of prestige and that it's near to my house. on the other hand, i've no interest in going to poly either. gosh, it indeed sounds like i'm just gonna sleep my whole life away eh. haha it reminds me of what huijin said, that i always have a face that says, "hi, my name is ruth and i dun care about anything other than CO." haha. well, i hate to admit it but it's true to an extent. BUT............... much as i'd like to CARE FOR CO, i think that the more i do that, the more i'm gonna erupt like a volcano. my stint as an ex-dhsco comm member has taught me to let go. back to the topic on my attitude. i've LOTS to reflect on. i never seem to learn. in sec 3, i got F's for 4/6 subjects. my GPA was 1.6 sth, when the minimum GPA for promotion to sec 4 was 2. i decided to quit dhp, and the school was nice enough to give me another chance to resit the papers i failed. and i wonderfully got 4 F9's for them. they actually let me be promoted. i've been really lucky the whole of last year, and i know it's not gonna happen again. once i flunk my promos, i'm just screwed. the mid-years are gonna serve as WAKE-UP call, with an S and a U so far. it's all up to me if i'm gonna take this seriously and use this 2 and a half months to buck up on my work and my ATTITUDE. mr teo wrote on my math paper, "push yourself and do better for promos.", sth like that. push, push, PUSH! no skipping lessons, LISTEN during lessons (it's amazing, but i can enter a classroom/LT and come out knowing NOTHING. dun ask me how i do that, i can), start doing tutorials, and the very first step. SLEEP LESS. haha like audrey told me, i should really cut down on my sleep. do it progressively. gosh, i can't really bear to sacrifice my precious sleep.. but for the sake of my BRIGHT future.............. PERSEVERE! oh yes, i still want that "focus" award or what the hell it's called! haha!


frankly speaking, i'm not disappointed with my results. seriously, you reap what you sow. as mentioned earlier, it's my ATTITUDE. yep. know the problem and SOLVE it. sleep less, sleep less, sleep less...................................


haha. well, the mid-years are already over, what's done is already done. it's only the mid-years, there's still promos! dun worry anymore, coz worrying won change anything. lol. just be happy and work harder and do your best! hoho :D


let's talk about more cheery stuff. i dragged audrey along to take a bus home with me today. heh, i saved her the agony of walking home under the HOT sun for 30 minutes! she ought to thank me lol. anyway, she lives reeeeeeeeeeeally near me! just one lane away. time to ask for free tuition! LOL!!!


it's dhsco announcement of new committee members tmr. i wanna go! but it's sooooooooo early in the morning and i really wanna sleep. i'll probably give it a miss since i know the results anyway. haha. time flies, really. 2 years ago, we were appointed. 1 year later, we stepped down and i was brimming with the joy of liberation. another year has passed and the next batch's gonna step down too. beforehand, congratulations to the new members, i believe you guys will do a good job! and a piece of advice, TREASURE YOUR SLEEP TONIGHT coz after this, you won't be able to sleep worry-free anymore. LOL. that's what mdm ilyana said to us 2 years ago! all's fresh in my memory. heh. undeniably, i've learnt alot from my 4 years in dhs and dhsco. yep.


oh yes. the trip to SCH yesterday reminded me of our SYF! minus the tension and excitement, of course. and when i went to the toilet, i recalled how i practically dashed in there to cry after SYF was over. hee.


this is one lengthy post. if you've been able to sustain till now, YOU ROCK!!! but less than me of course. LOL!!!! =D

a new term of lessons, the same old nagging from the same old teachers. lol. oh well..........................................


lol. mr lim went through our mid-years chem mcq just now. the best thing is that i couldn't even rmb my answers, let alone know whether they're correct or not. i'm sure they aren't, anyway. i could well get a 1/25. oh man! while ppl are busy thinking of the H3's they're gonna take, i'm gonna be considering which subject to drop to H1! lol.


haha, hilarious. hannah told me that i'm in the interclass soccer with amelia and chia wen! i was like........... "i can't play soccer, i run away when the ball comes!" whoa, imagine me playing soccer. lol.


had co today, after what seemed like a rather long while. HEH. i mustered that beautiful melody of dong ON THE GAO YIN SHENG!!!!! LOL!!!! the xian yue ppl happened to walk past and they said it's not bad! and someone asked me to gai3 hang2 HAHA. i'll consider. =D please call me a talent. LOL!!!!


mr quek conducted dazu today! hip hairstyle he has now. lol. anyway, like usual, he shocked me in the midst of my sudoku by asking me a question about gu4 ding4 yin1 gao1. and he called me "cai2 zheng4 bu4 zhang3". lol, he's just too used to that heh. told him i'm not the treasurer now! lol! hee mr quek's just miles better than.................... we all know, mentioning the name is unnecessary.


hai, some things get me sooooooooo annoyed. like................ what's with the way of the organisation? it's so............ and it's no wonder............. garh, it's suppressing to not be able to fill in those DOTS. haha. hee, at times i really dun know what to do. step aside........... or step up? trust me though. heh.


SOMEBODY got 90 marks for math mid-years, yeah SOMEBODY. this totally psychotic kleptomaniacal killer friend of mine whose name i shan't mention in case SOMEBODY decides to silence me for it. 90 marks. NINETY MARKS. SOMEBODY. LOL!!!!!!


oh gosh! we're getting back our math tmr! 5 U's on their way. "i'm on the way..................." BUT........ i'm dismissed at 12.10pm tmr! thanks to the combined co rehearsal. HOHO =D

some retarded pictures.







lam lee struggles to keep her balance while i'm posing coolly! whee! LOL.

an update on my "hair-raising" experience. haha.


went to meet yuqian and lam lee at aljunied mrt, coz they were accompanying me to get my hair cut. haha oh yeah yuqian and i knew that lam lee was definitely gonna be late, so we told her to meet at 1 when we were supposed to meet at 1.30. and she was still late in the end! but earlier than us. ha, it's finally her turn to wait for us! LOL.


we went to the supercuts at cineleisure. the hairdresser told me that the price was $30 and we decided to leave. so amusing. we roamed around, calling our friends asking them where should i go to get a haircut. i'm sure jieying was really surprised at my randomness wahahax. we went to tanjong pagar after that. whoa, the international plaza's so ulu and looked so scary. lol. after travelling like half of s'pore, we finally ended up at the place closest to my home, parkway. LOL. yeah and i FINALLY got my hair cut after wasting the whole afternoon. i was so nervous! kept praying that the outcome wouldn't be disastrous lol. i was quite horrified when the lady started to wax my hair. but yuqian and lam lee said it was very nice haha! hmm, i feel weird man! i look SO different now! my hair's so much more layered. i'm not used to it! it feels like i've got no hair everytime i shake my head LOL. oh man.. goodbye to my helmet! lol!


just to see me change my hairstyle, yuqian and lam lee walked all over the place with me! hahaha THANK YOU!!!!!! my deepest apologies for all that transport fare. hehe. i'm so touched, sobs. lol.


ah. i'm savouring the LAST donut from donut factory. =(