Much as I'm always looking forward to the weekends, I kinda can't wait for this week to be over. There seems to be sooooo much to do by Sunday and I'm procrastinating as usual. Thank God for the week gone by though, especially the later part. Yesterday must have been the first time I actually felt thankful to be able to go to school, thank God for my dad giving me a lift all the way there! I must have had at least 3 people greeting me with, "Hi Ruth, haven't seen you in a long time!" I'm just thin and hidden. Thank God for Grammar mid-term results, but I'm already prepared to fail both Math papers. And thank God for funny people hahahaha.

THE TRAUMA OF AED105 IS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!! Not that I was suffering for a long time since I only started last night (yes, enter the "ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!") but I almost had a mental breakdown. Thank God for the strength and focus to complete it. I'd lasted 28 hours without sleep by the time I concussed! Haha. Moral of the story, never do a 2000-word essay one night before the deadline. Hunting for evasive information from websites, books and journals just so that the citations can be done up is more than enough to kill. But let's see if I end up doing the same thing again for Ed Psych. Now for the next big thing - PBL, amidst other "smaller" assignments. Go go go!

Hmm. I guess we're getting affected one way or the other, and we're tired. At least, I'm quite tired, but I know that I shouldn't be. I should be on fire, but once again, it's a touch-and-go thing. How...?

The world is smaaaaaaaall. :)

"I started studying at 10pm."
"Wow, that's an improvement!"

That made me laugh.

Beyond my exasperation at some other stuff.

I'm gonna hit my limits.

Literally, and maybe not so literally.

Once again, I come to You, asking for Your love in and through me.

Thank God for the first boat-fishing experience, fine weather, food, fun, fellowship, fish, and false alarms. Lol.

A little schedule of the week to shock me into motivation.

Tues: Calculus Mid-term paper
Tues: PBL e-portfolio
Thurs: Algebra Mid-term paper
Fri: AED105 essay due
Fri: Ed Psych e-learning tasks due
Sun: Math online quiz due
Progress: ...

Woohoo! It's gonna be an exciting week ahead. I guess it has successfully overwhelmed me, but I'm... None the more motivated. I'M GOING TO SLEEP.

I've gotta magnify God.

Stop staring at the wall. There's nothing on it.

It feels as though I'm having another week of holiday. I decided to visit the doctor this afternoon. After the routine check-up, he said, "I'm going to cover you with lots of rest, I'll give you 2 days' MC for today and tomorrow." Oh, wow. This is really boomz. I wasn't feeling half as bad as yesterday but since he said to rest, I'll (very) gladly do so. And in doing so, the amount of hours I'll spend in school this week will probably total up to 5.

I can't believe that Farhan's out of Sg Idol. We all know how "awesome" he sounds, but we know also how Singapore usually votes. This is the 1 percent of the time Singapore votes right. It's totally boomz.

I apologise for the sudden Ris-like-ness in this post but thanks to the medication (which is making me feel more brain-dead than without), I'm... Yeah, brain-dead. And there're truckloads of studying and assignments parked outside my gates, which I still refuse to open...

Casting Crowns – Until The Whole World Hears

Lord, I want to feel your heart

And see the world through Your eyes

I want to be Your hands and feet

I want to live a life that leads

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves

Let us shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves

May the powers of darkness tremble as our praises rise

Until the whole world hears, Lord, we are calling out

Lifting up Your name for all to hear the sound

Like voices in the wilderness we're crying out

As the day draws near

We'll sing until the whole world hears

Lord, let your sleeping giant arise

Catch the demons by surprise

Holy nation sanctified

Let this be our battle cry

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves

Let us shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves

May the powers of darkness tremble as our praises rise

Until the whole world hears, Lord, we are calling out

Lifting up Your name for all to hear the sound

Like voices in the wilderness we're crying out

As the day draws near

We'll sing until the whole world hears

Want to be Your hands and feet

Want to live a life that leads

To see You set the captive free

Until the whole world hears

And I pray that they will see more of You and less of me

Lord, I want my life to be the song You sing

Until the whole world hears, Lord, we are calling out

Lifting your name up for all to hear the sound

Like voices in the wilderness we're crying out

As the day draws near

We'll sing until the whole world hears

Not bright enough, the intensity of the lamp isn't at its greatest.
Not loud enough, the volume of the speaker isn't at its highest.

Focus. Focus.

Not on the wall.

The recess week came and went. I enjoyed my night life for a bit once again, caught up on my sleep, completed the Lexical Relations assignment, didn't bother starting on the Critical Perspectives essay (DEADLINE HAS BEEN EXTENDED!!!!), left Math as it is, did some PBL, loved the short rest, wished and still wish it were longer... And had a fuse shorter than usual.

That last point sunk in last night. I spent some time in bed digesting moments of the week that had gone by, musing over the fact that I actually have friends. I'm not starting a documental critique on myself, but honestly. Judging my impatience towards the people around me and how irritable I can be, the fact that they remain so tolerant and concerned, it just overwhelms me sometimes. At least, it did last night. Thank God for having spoken to me about something, a little matter, but I guess the message got through.

We often hear, that there's nothing we can do to make God love us more, nothing we can do to make God love us less. God doesn't love us because we first loved Him, because we please Him, because we excel in life, becase we are good-looking. He just loves us, the way we are, each and every one of us. It amazes me. God's love is far greater than any of us can ever comprehend and I know I can never ever say that I'm deserving of this love. I really have to depend on Him, to be made an empty vessel for His love to flow.

Ha. I was at Eunos station just now and while I was walking past two girls, I noticed one of them looking at me. She didn't look too familiar, I thought that she was staring at me cos she's never seen such a skinny person in her life and was about to walk past until she stopped me and said, "Hi! Do you want a ride home?" I looked at both of them and found the other girl vaguely familiar. Oh, they're my cousins who live two or three houses away from me! HAHA. Alright, I'll admit, I don't know my relatives all that well even though we live so close to one another. At least they recognise me. :D Yep I hitched a ride from them, it was an enjoyable and amusing chat back. :) It's good to have so many relatives living nearby, haha.

I'm drowning in an invisible pile of work (cos I've yet to lift a finger to attempt completing it)... And I can't stop sneezing. Heeee.

Here I am, just like any other normal day, seated in my swivel chair, comfortably. Way too comfortably. I move over to the window, take a glance outside, sneak a peer at the few people walking by occasionally. I take a longer look. Still a longer look. Eventually, I find my gaze trailing after their footsteps. Where are these people headed? Surely, they have in mind a destination for the day. What about the next day? And the next?

The mind drifts further, the heart draws closer. The conflict begins.

Let's go. It's a golden opportunity. Perhaps not now, later. Come on... It's been given to you on a platter! No, it's not clear-cut enough, I've got to delve into things, I'm not sure how to do it, it's too out of the way for me, I'm afraid. I'm not ready...

The conflict continues. One by one, unassumingly, the people pass...

I clear my thoughts, move away from the window, back to the same, comfortable place.

At the end of it all, I'm still seated on my swivel chair.

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Met up with Janice for lunch this afternoon. Thank God for the time spent, for the little sharing on some thoughts. :) Headed down to NLB after that to borrow some books for the Critical Pespectives essay, thanks to Mavis' bombardment of questions last night, which made me realise how much I don't know, and how much there is to do! The trip made me recall the insane mugging for A's, and I can only say, I'm so glad it's a thing of the past. Press on, juniors! :D

Anyway, I conducted an Operation Find-the-Missing-Passport Part One, and... Failed. Anyone who wants to join in the second part of my treasure hunt, do let me know. The rewards are really attractive. Hahaha.

Help me to keep praying, to keep trusting. I need Your guidance, one step at a time. I have to trust that You are able in ways I'm unable, that You will catch me if I fall.

God works in remarkable ways, even in the most unexpected conversation with the most unexpected person. I was amazed for much of last night. Well, God will definitely open the doors if it's His will.

Haven't been getting much sleep the entire week. But I thank God that I wasn't asleep when I had lessons to learn. He's been showing me the importance of being patient, loving and humble, to depend on Him and not on myself. So many times, I'd been on the verge of shoving a whole cabbage down someone's throat (not in the literal aspect of course) but that was definitely not the way to do it, as I'd been reminded over and over again. (Come on, people need a little tenderness to digest the big thing.) It's also made me realise, how I'm constantly allowing my thoughts and feelings to hinder His greater plans. It's always about how I feel, how people think about me, how convenient it is for me. Me, me, me.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Isaiah 55: 9

Indeed, I've got to stop searching for my reflection in the mirror, and be willing to let His strength be manifested in my weakness. I've got to let go of my emotions and hold on to His promises.

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A meet-up to celebrate Lam Lee's nineteenth! I've realised, we don't meet up as often now, we've each got our own commitments and to a greater extent, we've changed individually. But one thing remains the same. We still say and do the darndest things. *Insert the Pokemon theme song*

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School can be fun, non-mathematically. Laughing at interesting lecturers, amusing tutors, hilarious stories of NS, little spastic moments at the Engineering Block food court and classrooms, MSN-ing during talks when we're two seats apart, intensive correction of grammar and pronunciation... Hahaha.

I was 35 minutes late for my first lesson today. To top that, my GC died on me during my Math quiz and I didn't even know beforehand. So I had to resort to the better alternative to plot my graphs - my imagination. And I fell while running up my staircase just now, so my toe hurts now. Yeah, retarded.

We really ought to treasure all that we have now.

What are we doing about this?

What am I doing about this...

“Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord. He will be like a bush in the wastelands; he will not see prosperity when it comes. He will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives. But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Jeremiah 17: 5 - 8

I'm a person who resists changes. Given a choice, I would want things to remain the same, I would want to stay in the same environment, I would want to remain in the same social circle. Forever. But it's a fact, the word "forever" may exist, but nothing is forever. Nothing in this world is forever. Good health can fail, stable jobs can be lost, excellent results will be forgotten, greatest friends may no longer talk to one another.

I know that I cannot depend on the world. In reality though, it isn't as easy to live it as to say it. I still find myself unwilling to let go of the past, unwilling to step out of my comfort zone, unwilling to accept change. We can talk about what things were like months back, we can reminisce all we want, but truth is, situations have way deviated from what they were like. As much as I want this to be like it was before, I know that it will never be the same again. As much as I wish people wouldn't change so much, they will change. And so will I.

When people are the basis of our confidence, we will be disappointed, time and time again. It is only when God is the ultimate source of our confidence will our lives be deeply rooted in well-watered soil; we will never be let down.

That's why I'm placed here. The need to focus and depend on God is intensified. I'm still learning.

I need Your guidance.

Wasn't a coincidence that I came across it I guess. It's a reminder, an extremely pressing reminder, to get off the couch and DO something. Yes...

It's been an interesting week. Couple of things here and there. It wasn't too pleasant but at the end of it, I'm very thankful for these friends. There is indeed a reason, I'm still learning, still trying to change.

Brief update on my week in school. I actually passed both my Math quizzes. What on earth? It's a relatively small weightage of our final grade, but thank God! On a different note, I'm probably about to make it to my Calculus tutor's "black" list.

Amazing. Was telling Val that I had stuff to tell her, and she actually figured out the essence of what I was gonna tell her, though I didn't even mention what kinda stuff. Uh, you could call it telepathy. Lol.

May each day, thought, action, word be purpose-driven, for You.

Few nights back, after having done my quiet time, I lay in bed and the tears started flowing. Here is God's love so amazing, and there I was being distracted by one million other things during the week. My focus was way off, I was drifting further and further. Thank God for speaking to me through that verse, and thank God for the people He has placed in my life.

Thank God for the Critical Perspectives tutorial on wednesday. Our group didn't even get to rehearse once, and just went in to conduct the tutorial after allocating the parts on that day itself. It was a little scary, we totally didn't know how long each part should be, how long the whole presentation would be. Really thank God that it went rather smoothly, minus the facilitating part, and for Dr Choy interjecting lots of comments and questions in between, otherwise we'd have finished way before time. We used up the full 2 hours. So that's it, my 40% is sealed. Haha.

Yesterday's Math lessons weren't as draggy I guess. I finally understood something! Matrices, haha. And our Algebra tutor's just so amusing. He's so old, so cute, takes a whole hour to go through 2 parts of the tutorial (a typical tutorial has 6 to 8 questions and we're supposed to finish one tutorial a week), but even then, no one really understands what he's teaching. So we decided not to listen and have our private conversations. Ha. And I learnt something from English tutorial yesterday! Yay, how could you not love Phonetics. :D

Genius flew off about an hour ago. It's too bad we didn't get to meet up but it's okay, I'm so going to London one day! :D Anyway, called her up just now and she was so... Anti-climatic HAHA.

Me: Hey, bon voyage!
Genius: You should go for your lectures.

Lol. And... I'm gonna get into serious trouble soon. :/

The past few days have been pretty good I would say. Although I still feel detached for a bit, well, in His time...

It's interesting, after working on our AED105 presentation and after today's consultation, to realise how much modern-day education has deviated from the time of Socrates and Confucius (ancient, yes). Taking a broad perspective, your character probably isn't as important as getting good grades. To quote an example, a child approached a teacher as she had been given extra marks for a test, and her dad reprimanded her for being foolish. Yeah, not everyone's like that, but the reality is that society measures people by grades, parents never stop pushing their children to excel academically, results always come first. Even if you don't agree with it, you'll somehow be brainwashed into striving so hard for I don't know what. It was an interesting consultation I guess. And through talking about personal emancipation, I got to know that Dr Choy's a Christian, haha.

I'm so dreading tomorrow. Long, long, long day with all 4 of my main tutorials placed on the same day, and my tutorials are undone. Rarhhhh.

I've been feeling a little claustrophobic lately. Not in the literal sense of course, just couldn't think of a better word to describe how I feel. Let's just say, there're loads I need to learn. Sometimes, people talk all the time and barely have 5 minutes to listen to what you want to say. But other times, you're the one talking all the time to other people, barely listening to what they have to say too. Hmmm. I think, maybe, I need a short break from people.

Anyway, we did some sort of a personality test based on the bird-type version of DISC for GESL just now, and I'm a dove. The whole list of characteristics is largely true. And the adjectives are pretty much accurate as well. Sensitive, unassertive, warm (maybe not), reliable (not really), soft-hearted, avoids risks (depends), people-oriented, friendly (not so much now), patient, unassuming, loyal, cooperative (most of but not all the time), kind, caring, emotional.

This part is cool. When communicating with a dove,
- Be relaxed and agreeable
- Be prepared to answer WHY questions
- Be predictable
- Agree clearly and often
- Don't push
- Don't rush
- Compliment him or her as a team player
- Be a good listener (to a significant extent)

So now you'll know how to communicate with me! Hahaha well, people'll be fine as long as they abide by the don'ts. I guess that's why I often don't meet deadlines, and become extremely uncooperative if someone rushes me. Okay, I know, that must change. Heh.

I love fridays! Beginning to enjoy Education Psych, even though it's 2 and a half hours long. But the tutor's really funny. She'll talk about something, then go, "Oh, did I tell you about the diaper?" "Oh, did I tell you about my son?" and she'll start telling us stories, then stop and say, "What were we talking about before this? Oh, yes, yes." She has many, many stories indeed but they're really interesting, so it's okay even if she side-tracks, unlike some JC teacher, whom I shared to the class about just now wahaha.

Our tutorials have officially started, making thursday my longest and most dreaded day. Last week was still a honeymoon period, but this week, we already have a project! And our group couldn't have been more fortunate to get "Group No. 1". So we're supposed to conduct a 2-hour tutorial without getting any insights since we're the first group...... Hopefully, we can find a 1 and a half hour video clip, and talk for the remaining time. Hahaha. And the professor will just fail us.

As I've realised, I've got 7 tutorial classes, probably slightly over a hundred classmates since there're several overlaps, so... No one really knows anyone but everyone just looks vaguely familiar. But I'm proud to say that I know everyone's names in my GESL class, although it's just for that class, it's still an achievement! And the games just now were hilarious.

Thank God for the week, especially for today. Thank God for the impromptu dinner with Jesslyn (we were each headed home but all of a sudden decided to go for dinner at Subway when the train stopped at Paya Lebar), who attends True Jesus Church, which is like a 10-second walk from my house, haha. Coincidental. Thank God for the stuff that's been happening over the week. Well nothing really happened, but yeah, things have definitely changed and I can only keep praying, keep trusting, keep depending.

Needa stop ponning lectures and start doing my tutorials. Mission Impossible.

The first week of school's over! Didn't start off very well, I was already feeling rather down the day before school started and I felt worse when school started on the first day. It was better the next two days, probably due to the short time spent in school due to tutorials being cancelled for the first week. Wasn't looking forward to today at all, have been really sore about not being able to make it to church. But really thank God for today, it was actually... Pretty fun!

I've been going on and on about friends from other schools having timetables that are more slack than mine, having at least someone they already know beforehand whereas I don't... But everything really happens for a reason I guess. I'm not someone who'll move out of my comfort zone, I don't ever take the initiative to talk to someone, if given a choice, I'd stay in my own world. But under circumstances like these, I no longer have a choice. Thank God for the talk with a sister couple days back. School will indeed take up a lot of time such that we'll spend less time with our friends, be it in church or outside. We have to really learn to depend on God. Which is so true, as I've realised, I tend to depend a lot on my friends. High time for me to learn!

I'm still praying that our GESL slot can be changed, since all of us want it to. But finding a common two-period slot when the timetables of 22 people are so different... That's tremendous difficulty. Still........ :)

Speaking of GESL, there're people in my class who live in Pasir Ris, Tampines, Simei, who're not staying in the halls! Cool!

And it's really quick, but I've got my first month's pay! Was pretty surprised when I saw such a huge increase in my balance. Yay I'm rich!!!!!! Not. According to my dad, I've got to save up so that I'll at least have some money to pay back in case I break the bond. Hur.

I'm still uncertain about what the 8 years will bring, or how long will I take to fully adapt to schooling once again. But thank God, for He is in control. I just wish people around me wouldn't be taking notes furiously cos I don't. :(

It's my last day of freedom!

And it seems like the feeling I had a couple months back is coming back again. Perhaps it's predominantly the idea of starting school again, the realisation that EIGHT MONTHS HAVE FLOWN BY and it's back to reality. But primarily, I know it's because I've lost my focus.

The St. John's Island trip was alright, went with the intention of fulfiling a purpose over the other. But there were probably too many thoughts running in my head that I ended up feeling rather distracted lol. Still, thank God for the peace and serenity there where I could just retreat to think and pray, for the talks with several people, for the candle fight, for the interesting shower, for the exciting storm, and for all the bread. Haha. And it was cool to see Vanessa there.

I did have a tinge of excitement about starting school some time back but to be honest, it's gone and I'm actually pretty scared. I've never felt worse starting school in a new environment before this. I guess it's due to the clear goals I had in primary and secondary school, not to mention that lots of my primary school mates and a third of my secondary school mates would end up in the same secondary school and JC. It's different now, I never saw myself here, people can't imagine me being a teacher, I myself can't imagine me being a teacher. And I don't know anyone from my course. With my character, it'll be pretty difficult. What's more, I'm soooooo unprepared, the only thing I'm prepared for is to pon lessons. :X I'll really, really have to depend on God, I don't know if I'm gonna survive the course, or even simply the timetable and travelling. I really wanna go for Uth on fridays but well........ Ahhhhhhh!!!

It's a struggle all over again. I know I have to do something, but I'm unwilling to face up to it and would rather run away. Then, it all goes down...

I need to focus on You alone.
I need to depend on You alone.
Help me.

:D

I shall attempt to blog more frequently in my last remaining days of freedom before I get too exhausted by the travelling and have no more energy to do so. I don't know if I should regret not staying in the hall but well, I've made the decision to travel east to west and west to east, so I'll live with it. What's more important is my timetable. If I'm not allowed to skip lectures as and when I feel like, I'm gonna be extremely miserable. And I just have a dreadful feeling that they're gonna be really strict. Nooooooo.

Amazing quote of the day. "Eh, Ruth, I wanna get married!"

Someone asked me to blog about her but she's afraid I'll shoot her girls. HAHA.

Wanted to blog about some stuff but I'm not in a very good mood now (it's no wonder two future doctors have decided to diagnose me with Bipolar Disorder) so, next time.

Patience, humility.

Lord,

Felt a little pensive as a couple of thoughts ran through my mind in the wee hours this morning. In just an eight-month holiday, things have changed. I can only pray. Pray that God will teach me what to do, that He'll give me the wisdom to help this person. Cos I don't know how to. Perhaps it will never go back to what it was like before, but I pray that this, will take it to a whole new level. So thankful that everything may just change in the blink of an eye, but God never blinks.

I Would Die For You - MercyMe

And I know that I can find You here
'Cause You promised me You'll always be there
Times like these, it's hard to see
But somehow I have a peace, You're near

And I pray that You will use my life
In whatever way Your name is glorified
Even if surrendering
Means leaving everything behind

My life has never been this clear
Now I know the reason why I'm here
You never know why you're alive
Until you know what you would die for
I would die for You

And I know I don't have much to give
But I promise You I'll give You all there is
Can I possibly do less
When through Your own death I live?

My life has never been this clear
Now I know the reason why I'm here
You never know why you're alive
Until you know what you would die for
I would die for You

No greater love is found
Than of those who lay their own lives down
As sure as I live and breathe
Now I know what it means to be free

My life has never been this clear
Now I know the reason why I'm here
You never know why you're alive
Until you know what you would die for
I would die for You

Great song with really meaningful lyrics. Keeps reminding me...........

Time to reflect. Help me, Lord.

Thank God for the past couple of days. My for-once-fully-packed Friday, Vibe, and yesterday. I realise, it's extremely energy-consuming to be eating and laughing so hard at the same time, as what Catherine and I did throughout the steamboat dinner yesterday. And I shan't embarrass this dear sister of mine, so I shan't say that her rice flew out of her mouth due to excessive laughter HAHAHA! :D


The wake last evening was a really heartwarming one. Very much different from those that I usually attend, I must say. Sure there were tears, but beyond that, it's evident, the inner peace. The family's indeed a great testimony and it's so amazing how God has worked in their lives. Was really moved and encouraged by one of the songs, didn't understand it but managed to catch the line, when we're weak, His grace will give us the strength that we need. Well, a rough translation.


Three cheers, I'm not school doesn't start tomorrow for me! Due to the H1N1, it has become e-orientation. >.< Slightly over a week left if there's a camp next week, otherwise I'll officially start lessons on the 11th August. Hoho.


Hmm, perhaps it's better not to be too perceptives sometimes. I've always considered my suspicions rather accurate and I guess the more I observe, the more I realise how sketchy people can be. And I'm learning to control my urge to pass snide remarks.


Dear friend, just wanna let you know, that I'm really thankful for you. :)

This is it.
This is it.
This is it.


I've officially signed 8 years of my life away! Imagine not being able to even survive the course, breaking the bond, not performing to standards, facing difficult situations and people. And to be honest, I'm secretly afraid of "payback", if you get what I mean. Haha. Those were the many thoughts swimming in my head the night before the signing. But indeed, it has been pretty amazing. Whatever happens, wherever I'll end up, I don't know, but thank God, He is in absolute control.


Val mentioned something just now which struck me. When we know God better, we know ourselves better. I thought about that and started listing out my new discoveries. "Eh, wait, they're supposed to be good points!" But I guess it's only by realising our weaknesses that we can truly see how God is working in our lives. I feel like a hamburger. I'm like this on the surface, like that when I'm closer to someone, but deep down, I'm really like this. I'm still struggling with what people have struggled with in the past. It gets better, then it's not so good again. It's emotionally draining sometimes, but I will trust that God will work in His perfect timing.


Just wanna say that I'm sorry. I actually really miss some people.


Not to mention that I feel zonked.

I'm back, I'm back!


Alright, I didn't really go anywhere, other than a coupla days' trip to St. John's Island. The past week's been pretty slack, having a crazy girl stay over at my place for some days LOL. Had a great time when Iris and Cat joined us last week, although Cat is still deluded about us enjoying her presence. Hahaha. More sleepovers next time! :D


Thank God for the trip to St. John's Island! It was really awesome. Wasn't that into the fishing, I'd just fiddle with the rod for a little while not intending to catch anything, then feel bored and return it. I really enjoyed the nights sitting around at the jetty staring at the vast sea, soaking in the peace and serenity, relaxing, talking, getting to know someone better. It's really peaceful there, a feeling you can't get back on shore. I could sit there all day just dazing at the sea. And not to mention we saw a rainbow on the first evening! It was soooo beautiful. Even though I didn't leave the island too glamorously, it was still a great trip, and it's alright, I've learnt my lesson and I'll have my revenge. Wahahaha.


For now, amidst the rocking I still feel even after having left the island for more than a day, a reality check - I'm starting school soon. Wow, I can't believe it and I don't want to believe it. After so many closed doors and all that uncertainty... It's just pretty unbelievable. But after the briefing today, it's really about time to leave my dreamland!


"I can't believe you're gonna become a teacher. You becoming a teacher is like me becoming a drug addict!"


Wahhhhhh! Lol.


Short, sharp, sweet. Thank God for the past two weeks! :)