wahahahaha. went to far east plaza to cut my hair today, with sharon, joo and mei ching. we spent quite a long time deciding which salon to go to and finally decided on this place called prince and princess or something lol. and when we were inside, we took an equally long time deciding on our hairstyles. but the hairdressers were rather patient. haha! so amusing, sharon was like our mother, telling the hairdressers what to do about our hair and all that LOL. anyway, there's like no difference in my hair, other than the "tail" at the back being snipped off and some trimmings done. but i'm super thankful that they din spoil my hair! hahaha. ohh sharon's hair is really nice and joo's is COOL! haha!


hee, alison left for canada this morning to study there. sigh................. was thinking about it last night and felt rather emo all of a sudden. but yeah, all the best and God bless! :)


i've been online since i came home. it's so cool, being able to be online 24/7 again. hahaha. gonna be a lazy day tmr, going to church then spending my time catching up on lost sleep. and for next week, it's all PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, this marks the end of the promos. which also means that my future is set. well, this period of time was rather.. special. coz it really determines my future, like REALLY. if i'm gonna get retained...................... let's not think about it for now hee. shan't go into the minute details of each paper, i think it's highly unnecessary. i have no clue as to how i'm gonna do, i have no wish to think back, i have no idea what the results will be, i have no guts to imagie what it could possibly be. all i know is that, thank God for being with me, for giving me the strength. "Faith in the Lord", that's what audrey kept reminding me.


also given to me by audrey, from 1 Peter 5:7 "casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." haha believe it or not, i was moved to tears, literally, when i received that message. i was having such an agonising time cramming all that ionic equilibrium stuff into my overly packed mind (it's demoralising when you start off the day with IE and at close to midnight, you're still at IE when the paper's just the next day and you have yet to touch the other topics). yeah, that message came at such a timely moment that i was just so, so touched. haha.


it's just weird, during this exam period i kept thinking of my family, about how they'll be so disappointed if i'm really retained. haha, i was telling mei ching the other day not to be surprised if i break down before collecting our results. she just din believe that i'll actually cry. well...... i've never been so bothered by an exam before! even O levels wasn't half as taxing as this. damn, i dun know if i'm gonna have any regrets. but yeah, i should already be grateful. for not feeling the pressure, for having the strength to go on. and no matter what happens, thank you to those who've been helping me and giving me so much encouragement! :)


yep as mentioned, last paper today. went with s34 to sakae at wheelock place. we got a complaint by some customers for being noisy! who're the noisy ones, man! yeah we went to walk around orchard after that. i'm sooooooooo tired now and my legs are aching! lol. hee, i really needa spend more time with s34, who knows if i'll still be there next year. gosh, it's such a saddening thought. shan't think about that anymore. treasure the present moments!


i'm so blessed, i really am, i have nothing more to ask for. Thank You! (:


now for my after-promos list:
1. KBOX!!!!!!!!!!!
2. seoul garden
3. a very much-needed haircut
4. lots and lots of sleep
5. and lots and lots of play!


whee! LIFE IS GAY! =D

omg omg omg omg omg the exams start TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven't been worrying these past few days but just now, a thought suddenly came to mind. what if i get retained? i'm very sure i won ever be in the mood to study anymore. argh, it's such a helpless feeling! and i can only blame myself. damn, i can only hope that these few days can help! i can't do anything, i can only pray. God help me! and all the best to everyone for promos!

something rather.. amusing. i got full marks for my bio remedial re-test! LOL. but honestly, it's just memorising the answers and such a thing will never happen during exams, so.. that was just to shock mrs lim a little lol. she was like, "ruth can memorise!" hee, who can't? haha. speaking of bio, my life practically revolves around it. mrs lim literally threw me one whole ton of work on monday! study the entire cellular functions (includes cell bio, carbo and some other chapters) and answer the entire candidates' objectives from (a) to (m), finish the whole genetics tutorial and finish the exam paper in one day. does she think i'm some superpower robot or what! anyway, i painfully finished up the 6 chapters, writing out everything under the list of objectives and gave it to her the next day. and she went, "huh? you ONLY did this?!" ROAR. i dropped bio for a reason okay! so that i have some time to concentrate on other salvagable subjects, not to spend another one-third of my life on bio! yes it's my fault that i'm doing such last minute revision, that i haven't finished my revision, and that's precisely why i'm trying to finish up all my stuff now. i do not only take one subject, i have 3 other subjects to worry about. argh!


lol. i had to see mrs lim yesterday, and valerie came along. whoa, the way she conversed with mrs lim, i think i've got myself a new mum LOL!!!!! super hilarious! but cool, coz she somewhat managed to "drag" me away when mrs lim tried to make me stay back. haha!


HAHAHA. ms wong went through some essay stuff during GP just now, and she asked a question about what do we do after writing our names down, something like that. she said she'll call the most studious person to answer and she called me! LOL! i was like totally clueless coz i was busy doing some bio stuff (see what i mean when i say my life revolves around bio, i actually did bio during GP, what's the world come to rarh). but anyway, you're talking to the "most studious person"! LOL ms wong's hilarious man!


i was telling shiang nee just now about how i'm so worried that i'll get retained. and she said, "i dun want you to be retained, you must study okay!" ahhhh i'm so touched =( haha. been feeling weird nowadays, i really, really, REALLY hope that i'll be promoted! i wonder what i'm doing online. i'm supposed to be making full use of every minute to study! and i actually took a 3-hour nap just now. argh. hope that i'll mug HARD tmr hehe.


shall try to not come online till after promos hee. now, i'm gonna do my EoM. how fun.


and before i forget. thank you everyone who has helped me and given me so much encouragement! :)

this week's a rather boring "holiday", if it should even be one. been spending the whole of it studying! argh, i was counting the number of chapters just now and i realise that i'm only about halfway done and it's a matter of DAYS to the promos. dammit, the rest of the two weeks have gotta be spent on mugging and NOTHING BUT MUGGING.


ROAR. it's times when you glance at your empty notes that you regret skipping those lectures, trying so hard to make head or tail of all that incoherent and discorganised nonsense information on your bio notes that you regret not paying attention, not understanding a single crap in the chem notes that you regret not doing your tutorials. but of course, it's too late for regrets, i'll just have to make the most out of this remaining time left. it's not much, but it can make a difference! umm, hopefully. each time i cram chunks of information into my head, i really wonder if it will pay off. i'm just so afraid of getting retained, imagine all the disappointment my parents will feel............ =( study, study, study HARD and not have regrets. i hope.


went to school to do PW yesterday. hope mr lim won draw that cliff thing on our written report again anymore man........ haha. went to study at the parkway burger king with huijin after that. and i finally understood implicit differentiation LOL. oh zilu all of a sudden asked me if i was studying for my promos. haha! all the best to the seniors for all upcoming exams! :D :D :D


received a message from zhiying yesterday asking if i wanna go send yelin off, she's going to scotland to study. i din, btw. my dad would have complained that i should be studying haha. but it goes to show how everyone around me has their own dreams and ideals. unlike me, who's in the meantime really struggling for a promotion. i guess my goal in life is just to have a goal. heh.

gosh, this marks the end of term 3 and in a mere 20 days we'll all be sitting for the dreadful promos! roar. mug i hope to do, pray i can only do. hee!


went out with joanne, lam lee, yuqian, valerie and cristal on wed. yeah, one last time before joanne left for the uk. she's only coming back next year! sob. haha, we were laughing over the "good ole days" again over dinner. how lam lee was always so unlucky, getting caught over looking at the mirror, eating sweets, things the rest of us did often but never got caught. lol! and we were commenting about how hilarious mrs ang was. her favourite chinese phrases, "luan luan lai" and "jia li hai" LOL! haha yeah and how she called me the smart girl from dhp (the "smart girl" is struggling to get promoted now =( ) and many other amusing stuff! oh man, those were the days! haha. hope joanne's having fun back in the uk now!


yesterday was the teachers' day celebrations. the plan was to go back to dhs with yuqian, lamlee and cristal but we decided not to coz it was rather late. haha yup went to city hall instead to buy lamlee's present. valerie kept rambling on about kbox and made me wanna go too! but of course we din, due to our holey pockets heheh. we spent a rather long time there eating at different places HAHA.


hee, i'm starting to miss my sec 4 days again. those were like the best days of my secondary school life! all the nonsensical stuff i did, the great teachers who taught me and the simply WONDERFUL friends i made! but well, life's currently great too! with the exception that i constantly worry about getting retained yet i dun do anything about it. and i wonder if anyone will miss me if i get retained! lolol. that's what yuqian, lamlee and i put on our msn nicks. "if i'm retained, will i be missed?" dammit, i need the promotion, i need to study! heh.


came across this line which i find rather meaningful. time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by the wheels; only when the clock stops does time come alive. I HAVE NO TIME! lol.

haha! went to school today to support keely in the css grand finals. it was fun! BUT i was soooooooooo super duper mega freaking ANGRY coz benjamin din emerge the male champ! wahlao............ he totally trashed shawn can! shawn's just one over-rated kid who's not gonna be cute a few years down the road! ROAR! BENJAMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( :'( :'( and i must say the grand finals are such a lousy end to a lousy show. i bet li weisong and xu huanliang must have thought it a total waste of time LOL. like......... a 32 and 33 mark grand finals? such a joke man! i bet if benjamin had won the males side he would have gotten 45 marks LOOOOOOOOOOOOL. aye, i should stop thinking about that lol. but i was really soooooooo sad when shawn's face appeared on the screen! almost threw the cup in front of me downstairs. hahaha and amelia kept asking me not to cry lol. i din, by the way. but if i were watching it alone at home i would have cried lol!


lol mr seat kept urging us to vote for keely saying that if she won, we would get a half day. and.......... i actually voted! can't believe myself, i did promise that i'd never ever vote for a chinese singing contest. lol! yeah i voted thrice omg. joo voted five times and sharon voted once lol!


ARGH thinking of the horrid grand finals makes me a little angry. but i'm glad that i went to school! even though they were so annoying coz they kept muting the screen when they were making announcements and i can't really hear anything...... but the atmosphere was great! and when mr fong announced a full day, everyone cheered like mad. and i never sang the school song with such zest before! LOL.


argh but the mood spoiler had to come! cephia told me that the full day may not be on monday. ROAR. not really angry about that but it's just that sharon, joo and i planned to go to kbox! argh! sigh..........................


hehe. lousy finals and lousy winner aside............ I LOVE VJC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha =D

gosh, the s34 people have recently taken to calling me FAT. all the "ruth needs two seats!"'s and "ruth, you should stop eating or you'll grow even fatter"'s are just soooooo amusing. oh man, how could the world enter a stage of such deceit?! LOOOOOOOOOOOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


on a more truthful (lol!) note, life as a H1 bio student is rather cool, considering the many tutorials of meiosis that i can skip. not to mention sleeping in the library when everyone is screaming over worms in syringes. (i'm not gloating, seriously) hahaha. unfornately, i haven't been making good use of this extra time though. been slacking in the co room. which makes me realise that i hardly go up there these days lol. hmm, i was rather reluctant to drop a subject initially. it was under pressure from that fierce HOD that i handed in the form so hastily. but my results were just sooooo bad. and at the very least i'm not regretting now. erm, as yet. lol.


roar. i've been spending some time these days thinking about the highly possible scenario of me being retained. and despite actually worrying, i'm not even doing anything to prevent that from happening. honestly, i'm just this aimless, wandering soul who unkowingly ended up in vjc but instead of mugging like most students are now, i'm somehow going the other way. argh, the thought of "saying goodbye to s34" is such a dismal one. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


oh yes, i gotta admit that my shoes are so beautiful that one of the TIP students from taiwan took a picture of them and posted it on the tip site/blog. wow, my shoes are famous. LOL.


hee. my mum is one musical prodigy man! throw her any piece with just the melody and she'll add in such beautiful accompaniment straight away. the most i can do is just add in simple chords. practise, practise, get the feel! =D


going down to school tmr to support keely in the css grand finals. but really........... heheh. benjamin, benjamin! LOL. but as a fellow dunmanian, dhsco-ian and victorian................. all the best to keely! i have zero doubt that she'll be the female champ though. yeah. have fun!

whee! went down to caldecott hill to watch campus superstar with huijin, jieying and amelia on monday. it was really cool! haha. deafened by all that screaming and whistling. oh and i blew the whistle ultra loudly when benjamin went on stage! HAHA. yup we stayed to watch the results show and i almost died of a heart attack when marcus and benjamin were left standing. i was sooooooooo ELATED when benjamin got in! my praying works heh. lol. haha i was trying hard to hide myself with keely's poster but some people still spotted me.


today............. wasn't an exactly fantastic day. ROAR. body jam was sooooo retarded! haha it was fun in a sense, but it made me lose my image. lol. ha back to the not so fantastic part. it was rare that i could be dismissed at 1.55pm but i had to stay back for exco meeting at 4.30. so i went for bio prac, bio remedial... when i could have been at home sleeping. haha. and the part which annoyed me totally...................... hee, some things are better left unsaid yeah.


i think i meant to blog about some other stuff but i kinda forgot what. so, never mind.

yawn. so tired now. just spent a fun-filled 2 plus hours doing the introduction of our PW written report. haha! finally done with it. gonna send it to my dear members soon! i'm so proud of myself, it's like the first time i'm sending in something before the dateline. oops. lol!


national day celebration in school yesterday. it was really boring. the most exciting part was the mass dance i guess. but even so, our class had to leave halfway for bio make-up lesson. honestly, our teachers have to learn to manage their time properly. yes, just stop side-tracking and providing redundant information that not many people are interested in. hehe.


went to kbox with sharon, joo and huijin yesterday! HAHA. our huge kbox crave. the people there were soooooooooo annoying. they came to chase us out at 6 when our session was supposed to end at 7. then they came in again at 6.30 and another two more times at 7. roar. haha but anyway. I LOVE KBOX!!!!!!! and i vow to conquer that note in the last line of ting hai the next time i go. hmph, i refuse to believe that i can only do it at home HAHA.


went out with joanne, valerie and yuqian today. we had lunch at siglap coffee club, then made our way to raffles place coz joanne wanted to buy anime posters. bad choice, apparently. we alighted at the wrong stop and took forever to make our way to raffles city due to the huge red sea of people. i was so giddy looking at those people squeezing and pushing. thankfully, i came out alive lol.


i think the NDP just gets more boring year by year. i used to have my eyes glued to the tv when the programme came on. but this year i just turned the tv off and attempted to study stoichiometry. HAHA. and wonderfully, i couldn't find my notes. i practically turned my room up, down and up again. in the end, my mission wasn't accomplished and my room just became messier by about ten folds. going to meet audrey tmr to borrow her notes! haha! gosh, it does help when such a brainy classmate lives near you. haha!


i'd bettter get off the computer soon, or my dad will probably ban me for the rest of my life. hoho. miss me, people!

did CIP with co ppl today! went to meet them at parkway mac for breakfast, then took a rather long walk to the marine parade town council. we were supposed to split into groups and collect old newspapers from a few blocks of flats. tingkai, zongxing and i were a group and we rocked man. we collected soooooooo many newspapers (filled the whole bin!) and even got drinks on the way. such nice residents. it had to be my noble aura. oh. and we chanced upon huang yiliang's house! he said he was moving house and had no newspapers to give us. but he gave us 3 cans of drinks. whee! haha we were rather inefficient at first. they wanted me to do all the asking coz they felt that the residents would probably be kinder to a girl. lol. so i started off with "hi, we're from victoria junior college and we're here to collect old newspapers for the salvation army. do you have old newspapers to spare? thank you, thank you, have a nice day, thank you" and this 'speech' was on repeat mode for the rest of the day. lol. hee but it was really fun! that momentary sense of satisfaction when someone says "hold on" and returns with a HUGE stack of newspapers. haha! yep, enjoyed myself quite alot but it was rather tiring. haha. and zilu's description of a strange guy was rather scary. hee. oh i realise that most of the elderly there spoke english! which was cool, coz for a moment i couldn't recall what 'junior college' in chinese was. ended up telling someone that i'm from 'wei duo li ya zhong xue'. hehe.


we were at burger king having lunch just now and guess what. I SAW MRS GRACE ONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my favourite-est teacher EVER who turned my utmost hatred for chemistry into interest in the subject. the teacher who never gave up on me and made me wanna put in every ounce of my effort in chem. and i think that's kinda a reason i actually dun hate chem despite being condemned frequently by some creature. yup talked to mrs ong for a while. she remembers that i'm in co! hahaha. when she asked me how i was coping with chem, i almost blurted out my paramount dislike for some creature but i realised it wasn't very relevant. lol. she gave me useful advice and i'll take it veeeeeeery seriously. oh man................... i still rmb there was once she rmb-ed my name but forgot valerie's! LOL. typical teachers would forget MY name and rmb killer's. HAHAHA. yeah i was telling her that vj ppl are all really smart. then she said, "but you're from vj too!" i told her that i went it through my cca and she was like, "dun worry, it doesn't matter. you'll be able to catch up as long as you work hard." ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh =( mrs ong's always so encouraging. still rmb all the "improving! good job! keep up the good work! you can do it!'s" she wrote on many of my papers. and i think of all my days of suffering with that creature now. it makes me feel kinda sad. well...


think this is a rather confusing post. feeling a little 'emo' now after talking so much about mrs ong. hee. her kindness, encouragement and dedication to teaching... that's sth i will never forget.

haven't been seeing me online too often eh? yes, i've been banned from the computer once again. lol. and i'm trying to make myself STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!! failing, but... at least i'm doing my bio tutorials! LOL.


oh my, i saw felicia chin in school yesterday! i got a shock when i almost bumped into her when she was walking out of the library. i should have taken a picture with her lol. anyway, she looked a little too white. yeah, the "wonders" of make-up. and i realise that she's really thin. but not as thin as me of course. heheh.


it's been an exciting week at school! the inter-house floorball was held over these past 2 days. i went to play after my bio remedial yesterday. played in the match against phoenix. whee we won! faced off against pegasus (the team looks scary) in the finals and... WE WON!!!!! champions for the girls! stayed back today with sharon, joo and huijin to watch the guys' match. they were like so rough! haha. oh. sharon has really hilarious nicknames for some of the guys! like big foot LOL!!!!!!!!! and there was this guy who just planted himself on the edge of the stage when sharon was sitting there! talk about RUDE. haha. back to the guys' match. aquila went through to the finals again (yay!) and faced off against ursa. wth, there was this goal, the ball landed like in between jarren's legs AND IT WAS COUNTED. like.............. wth! we lost narrowly to ursa 4-3. but it's okay, we're still the overall champions! AQUILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh man, i'm so happy today! like sharon said. HOUSE PRIDE! haha!


noble's gonna be doing CIP with the co ppl tmr at marine parade. we'll be collecting old stuff i think. i know i have a golden heart. thank you. lol!

i was feeling really emo 2 days ago. was really infuriated by some co stuff. at night, i thought about some other stuff. like all of a sudden, lots of things came to mind. the kindness i received from so many people all the while.. and i just felt so touched that i cried. what's more, my cousin delivered a slice of cake to me. family is just so warm. i'll never ever feel so sheltered and loved anywhere else. heh. alright, that was a random thought. but ya, I LOVE MY FAMILY! =D


these 2 days at school were really fun! i've no idea why too. felt that i've been enjoying myself lately HAHA. we did aerobics for PE yesterday. it was sooooo funny. seeing everyone looking so comical. oops. haha.


today was declared a half day! due to college (prisoner) day tmr. but there were no cheers as everyone already knew there's gonna be a half day. haha went to kbox with sharon, joo, mingyao and amelia. but before that we went to the guitar room to slack, waiting for 1 plus to come so that we could catch the 2pm slot. we churned out beautiful music! kinda fun fiddling with the tambourine and the other percussion-like instrument which i dunno what it's called. haha. kbox was fun fun FUN! haven't been there in AGES. sang from 2 to 7pm. oh man.. i feeeeeeel good~ lol. i think we all (yes me included LOL) have such nice voices! LOOOOL!!!!! haha so funny. we were so reluctant to go when the time was up. the kbox guy had to keep coming in to chase us out. and when he disappeared, we hurriedly ran in again. but he appeared again after a while and we finally left. HAHA. ahh i wanna go again!!!!!!!!!!!


roar. i have yet to come to a decision on which subject to drop. or whether to drop at all. HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!


locking up college day tmr. i'm sure it's gonna be a FUN and EXCITING experience! being cooped up in the LT like chickens is just so pleasurable, dun you envy us! lol.


"Humility is estimating your worth under the might of God, being aware ofyour weaknesses, not being conscious of others' strengths in comparison to yours."


ruth, step up but be humble! :D

haha, 'tis a little late but.. soccer inter-house on thurs was a blast! we initially lost to phoenix and pegasus (coz i wasn't there hence the absence of noble aura). then we won ursa (my bio remedial ended and i went to play) LOL! nah, it's EVERYONE. i felt so brave! i actually went to attempt to snatch a ball from 2 ursa-ians lol. normally i wouldn't care. aye but my soccerphobia still exists haha. yup we drew with lynx. and the most exciting match of all.. WE WON DRACO!!!!!! yeah, draco who won all five houses but WE WON THEM!!!!!! oh man.. that was one nerve-wrecking match. we all cheered like anything when cheryl managed to bring the ball to our side. after a few attempts, xiangling scored the goal! we totally went nuts! and there were so many moments when draco almost scored but thanks to our IMBA goalkeeper denise, the balls din go in! and......... WE WON!!!!!!! whee CHEERS FOR AQUILA!!!!! :D :D :D


thank you to the kind soul who rewarded the soccer plays with the giant stick! oops, hannah's so gonna kill me for still not knowing who gave the giant stick even after she dragged me to the house board to read the message. hehe.


went to see mdm wee again today. she's really, really, really, really REALLY nice man! sigh, i feel so guilty for not even doing anything. ROAR. heheh, she said that mr teo (our math tutor) told her that there's hope for my math! yay! =D


stayed back in school tilll 4pm today coz the HOD of mother tongue, also the head of performing arts, wanted to see students from the performing arts who DSA-ed or appealed and din do well. erm yes, that's me. she wanted to see xingzhong, tingkai and me from co. 3 of us waited outside the HOD office and had to go in one by one. for a moment it felt like some caning session. i was the last to go in. man, i'm glad i got prepared by ms tan (the HOD)'s candidness or i'd have fainted on the spot. she's really fierce! here's some parts of her conversation with me which were rather.. interesting.


ms tan: how did you do for both your maths in the O levels?
noble: A math 1, E math 2
ms tan: what a weirdo
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ms tan: what do you do on the internet the whole day?
noble: post my (valuable) opinions on a reality tv forum
ms tan: post post post, your english very good lah huh?!
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ms tan: can you please stop using your internet?
noble: okay, i'll cut down
ms tan: (yells) NO!!!!! STOP IT!!!!!
noble: *shocked* okay, okay................
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gosh, a third of my school life is spent seeing teachers. i'll be able to count how many lockers are there outside the staff room soon.


hee. i was bored and hungry just now so i attempted to boil some eggs. oh man, call me a genius, they turned out so nice! yeah, that was my first attempt boiling eggs (now stop staring at me for not knowing how to boil eggs, i know now!)


and there leaves one huge decision to be made. WHICH SUBJECT SHOULD I DROP TO H1?!?!?!?!?!?! advice, please!

YYYYAAAAAAWWWWWWWNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sleepy.


a certain L------------- niao-ed me again yesterday. oh wow, so surprising. not. yup he told us about our average mark for chem in comparison with the S3's, and he said we're second. then he went on, "if ruth had gotten an S instead of a U, we would have been first!" OMG i'm sooooooooooo sorry, it's all my fault, i din mean to mar some reputation, please forgive me =( =( =(






































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LOL! i din feel anything, but some ppl were rather angry about that. HAHA and jieying did sth really amusing, which shan't be mentioned here. lol. anyway, it's not gonna daunt me. (please, i dun even listen to......................) oh no, i din say anything, dun accuse me of not listening to my teachers. but really, writing an econs essay's probably more exciting then listening to the same discouraging words over and over again. eh, what discouraging words? no, i din say by whom. and some ppl really aren't worth my time. hey, i din say some teachers yea. oops i'm wasting too much of my precious blog space for this. time to move on, read a book, watch a movie..................


guess what, i din pass anything! other than GP, which isn't really, you know, counted. haha! but i'm actually rather proud of my GP marks. hoho! din expect to get a rather high mark for the compre. and a shocking 6.5/8 for AQ. when up till now i dun really know how to write an AQ. i dun even recall what i wrote heh. speaking of GP.................. mdm wee spoke to me yesterday! i think she's one of the more observant teachers i've seen. she's observed (very correctly too) that co's a rather important factor in my life. and she knows that by asking me to study for my own good, it's not gonna work. yup so she advised me.. use vjco as a motivation! haha. for vjco, for the end-of-year concert. mdm wee's sooooooooo nice! i was kinda touched by her words yesterday hee. and sometime during the night, she sent me an sms saying "jia you!" wahhhhhhhhhh......... how many teachers would actually bother doing sth like that? haha yeah and i told her i passed my GP, and she said it's a good start! hopefully, yeah. thank you mdm wee! :D


it was freezing cold in LT 2 today during chem lecture. hmm why arh? >.<>"i can teach you how to toss a frisbee, but i can't teach you chemistry." - the noble one. LOL!!!!!

for some reason, the past few days of school were rather enjoyable. lol! hee. mr quek came on wed for our co practice but he din conduct dazu. instead, he talked about his experience in switzerland and how he wanted to give up coz it was just too difficult. he went on to talk about co music in s'pore, how we aren't really taught properly and all that. hmm, i must say, i kinda agree. he also showed us a video about a few orchestras in south america. i was really touched by the part where they showed mute children singing by sign language. their passion for music and perseverance should be much admired!


we played frisbee for PE yesterday! haha hannah and the rest said that the way i catch the frisbee is like plucking stars. LOL. coz i'll usually just wait for the frisbee to come nearer, then reach out my hand and catch it. i'm just not used to using two hands, maybe i should try next week. haha they're damn pro. they can actually use enzymes to describe me catching the frisbee. those facts about lock-and-key, induced fit..................... lol. frisbee is rather fun!


audrey han ROCKS man. like totally. i'm supposed to pass a copy of my action plan (the sure-fail one) to mrs lim and i haven't. mrs lim walked past us just now and audrey reminded me softly about the action plan, and i whispered back to ask her not to talk about it lol. and then she said out loud, "hi mrs lim! ruth owes you her action plan!" of course, mrs lim started nagging me for it. but the moment she entered the class, i think she switched her attention to sth else *phew*. audrey's so mean! such betrayal is not to be condoned. LOL! =P


haha! mei ching asked me about my results just now. and she was rather shocked lol. she kept insisting that i dun care! haha. i think i do care. it's just that i dun do anything about it. hmm. but that's kinda equivalent to not caring eh? aye. i've calculated, and i need to get D's for promos to promote. yay, ruth rocks!


seems like there's a new rubik's cube craze going around in school now. so many ppl were playing with it during bio lecture! and everytime i saw someone struggling with it, i was soooooooooo tempted to go complete it for them! yes, being the noble one that i am, i've mastered the techniques of completing a rubik's cube long ago! lol.


big news, valerie has learnt the art of sms-ing during lessons. she msg-ed me during econs lecture yesterday and the msg said, "pig...flip your notes." lol! coz it had been 20 minutes and my notes were still not flipped open. that just proves i'm too attentive during lectures that i do not flip my notes! HAHA. speaking of valerie, she came to my house just now. she happend to be at the church really near my house, so she came by for a while. heheh. and yes.........


HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE!!!!!!!!! have a good year ahead being your usual killer/maria/piggish/psychotic self! and i know you'll be enjoying the times of spying on me during lectures and gossiping about me with audrey. not forgetting wanting to help me draft out a THREE-PAGE action plan. lol. yeah, have a SUGARY SWEET SEVENTEENTH! RUTH ROCKS!!!!!! (being the bimbo that you are, i know you'll love this colour. LOL)

just returned from the co syf presentation. lol, it was okay in general. haha we thought that it wasn't compulsory to wear court shoes, so majority of the vjco were in our varied kinds of shoes. turned out that when i looked around, everyone wore court shoes except for us! it was a little embarrassing LOL. but i'm sure no one would bother about my striking shoe-laces. other than kelvin ho and juliana, who kept commenting on them! haha. oh yes, i'm sooooo lucky that the moment i was on stage, my di mo broke! i think it's the first time in my life that this ever happened during a concert. whoa, luckily juliana asked me to use skotch tape, reminding me that i had lots of them lol.


we had the inter-house soccer just now. aquila vs. aquila. it was amelia and i with some other seniors against hannah, joo and some of the S33s. the whole game was spent screaming! when someone kicked the ball, a bunch of them would start screaming. and the ball stayed permanently at just one half of the field! hannah was the other team's goalkeeper and everytime she kicked the ball, someone from our team would get it but kick it out. then it would start from hannah again, and this action repeated for sth like an eternity. LOL. finally, hannah's team decided to let us score a goal. coz apparently we're supposed to be the strong team (how can, when there's me!) and the team which would advance. so hannah stood like outside the goalpost and our team scored a goal. whoa, the way we played..... i got tired coz of laughing, not of playing lol! i think the referee was rather pissed off. haha and johnathan and zixuan saw our match, and after that they told me, "wah, your match was so interesting!" -_-"


okay, i'm like currently hounded by every single teacher who knows me! sort of, anyway. mr lim wants to speak to me again, mr teo wanna speak to me, mdm wee wanna speak to me. but mr teo and mdm wee were really very encouraging! hee. mrs lim spoke to me just now, for a whole of 35 minutes! she was asking me lots of WHYs, and made me draw out an action plan. in which i filled in, "cut down on afternoon naps, limit usage of internet to 2 hours a day........" and she went, "WAH after cutting down your internet, you still can use it for 2 hours? i must say you have ALOT of time, considering you're always rushing off for co. why are your grades still like that?" lol. then she asked why i could excel in dizi and not my studies, is it coz due to my "natural talent" for dizi, i take everything for granted, thinking i do not have to work hard as long as i have the talent. heh, that's one point i shoold go reflect on. lol.


yay, reporting to school at 9.15am tmr! but dammit, EoM's due tmr and i haven't STARTED. spell s-t-e-a-m-e-d.

yesterday was a cool day coz the combined co ppl were dismissed at 12.10pm! speaking of which, i've ponned thurs' lectures for 3 weeks already. i'm like totally clueless about which topic the lecturer's doing now. haha. audrey told me that if i were as "imba" as i was at captain's ball, i would have done very well in my studies. yeah, i wish! haha.


the rehearsal was boring, boring, BORING. everything's so disorganised and messy, ended up the schedule had to be pushed back. hai, my show. haha ms meta was beside me watching the other items, and she commented on dhsco's discipline. yup so i told her quite alot of stories from mr tay to dhsco to the members and quite alot of stuff. ms meta's so nice! hahaha. hmm on the way back to school from SCH, our bus broke down. i had a rather nice nap on the bus while we waited for another bus. and i missed my show again. SIGH.


our group did our PW prototype today! took some nice videos, but i'm too lazy to upload them. but it was really fun, getting the class involved in all the acting and guessing and stuff. hannah was totally hilarious! LOL!


i guess mrs lim likes me too much that she had to SPECIALLY ask me how i thought i'd do for bio. my reply was an S. i wanted to say a U, but i figured that she'd probably never end her questions. yeah she asked me a fair amount of questions, which i tried my best to answer, praying that she'd move on to lessons. heh. she went on to ask when would CO end lol. and that she hasn't seen me in a long time. doing work. lol. zzzzzzzz....... but really, she's a rather nice teacher. in the sense that she doesn't show bias, and she picks on us (me) coz she wants to help us (me) and not coz she wants to embarass anyone. hee.


we got back our math paper yesterday. mr teo called us up one by one! it was kinda scary. not to mention that i had to wait for 23 ppl before i could get my paper. haha. but i was sitting there very calmly. haha huijin said that i'm always so calm, coz no matter what i get, i wouldn't care. "fail, nvm. get A also nvm." LOL. it wasn't entirely coz i din care. i just din have a single trace of confidence in me. how to, when i practically learnt everything the night before, trying to cram as much stuff as possible into my limited memory space. plus the fact that i left out a few chapters and some of my notes are well, rather clean. neither was i totally helpless like i was for chem, where there was every possibility of getting a single digit. for my math, i just had to let it be. like pray that whatever i left out din take up too many marks and whatever i did i din make too many careless mistakes. hee.


mr lim returned our chem papers today. before that, he said sth about the mcq. "by pure guessing, if someone shades all A, he can get 6 out of 25 marks. but this student only got 4/25.........." guess who. haha. but i was prepared for this, from the moment i opened the question booklet. my section B was equally screwed. there was this question on stoichiometry which totally owned the other structured questions though. coz the only topic i REALLY know is stoichiometry. mr lim read out our marks one by one. and of course, he asked to see me. he basically told me the same things. me saying goodbye to vj at the end of the year if i flunk my promos, dropping a subject to H1, thinking that i won do well for bio etc.


no will, no motivation, no self-discipline, can't force myself to study. yeah, that's not an excuse. it's in the attitude. argh, sometimes i do question myself what's my aim for the future. it seems like i'm some wandering soul who entered vj without a reason. more often than not i find myself wondering why did i actually dsa into vj in the first place. just coz it's a school of prestige and that it's near to my house. on the other hand, i've no interest in going to poly either. gosh, it indeed sounds like i'm just gonna sleep my whole life away eh. haha it reminds me of what huijin said, that i always have a face that says, "hi, my name is ruth and i dun care about anything other than CO." haha. well, i hate to admit it but it's true to an extent. BUT............... much as i'd like to CARE FOR CO, i think that the more i do that, the more i'm gonna erupt like a volcano. my stint as an ex-dhsco comm member has taught me to let go. back to the topic on my attitude. i've LOTS to reflect on. i never seem to learn. in sec 3, i got F's for 4/6 subjects. my GPA was 1.6 sth, when the minimum GPA for promotion to sec 4 was 2. i decided to quit dhp, and the school was nice enough to give me another chance to resit the papers i failed. and i wonderfully got 4 F9's for them. they actually let me be promoted. i've been really lucky the whole of last year, and i know it's not gonna happen again. once i flunk my promos, i'm just screwed. the mid-years are gonna serve as WAKE-UP call, with an S and a U so far. it's all up to me if i'm gonna take this seriously and use this 2 and a half months to buck up on my work and my ATTITUDE. mr teo wrote on my math paper, "push yourself and do better for promos.", sth like that. push, push, PUSH! no skipping lessons, LISTEN during lessons (it's amazing, but i can enter a classroom/LT and come out knowing NOTHING. dun ask me how i do that, i can), start doing tutorials, and the very first step. SLEEP LESS. haha like audrey told me, i should really cut down on my sleep. do it progressively. gosh, i can't really bear to sacrifice my precious sleep.. but for the sake of my BRIGHT future.............. PERSEVERE! oh yes, i still want that "focus" award or what the hell it's called! haha!


frankly speaking, i'm not disappointed with my results. seriously, you reap what you sow. as mentioned earlier, it's my ATTITUDE. yep. know the problem and SOLVE it. sleep less, sleep less, sleep less...................................


haha. well, the mid-years are already over, what's done is already done. it's only the mid-years, there's still promos! dun worry anymore, coz worrying won change anything. lol. just be happy and work harder and do your best! hoho :D


let's talk about more cheery stuff. i dragged audrey along to take a bus home with me today. heh, i saved her the agony of walking home under the HOT sun for 30 minutes! she ought to thank me lol. anyway, she lives reeeeeeeeeeeally near me! just one lane away. time to ask for free tuition! LOL!!!


it's dhsco announcement of new committee members tmr. i wanna go! but it's sooooooooo early in the morning and i really wanna sleep. i'll probably give it a miss since i know the results anyway. haha. time flies, really. 2 years ago, we were appointed. 1 year later, we stepped down and i was brimming with the joy of liberation. another year has passed and the next batch's gonna step down too. beforehand, congratulations to the new members, i believe you guys will do a good job! and a piece of advice, TREASURE YOUR SLEEP TONIGHT coz after this, you won't be able to sleep worry-free anymore. LOL. that's what mdm ilyana said to us 2 years ago! all's fresh in my memory. heh. undeniably, i've learnt alot from my 4 years in dhs and dhsco. yep.


oh yes. the trip to SCH yesterday reminded me of our SYF! minus the tension and excitement, of course. and when i went to the toilet, i recalled how i practically dashed in there to cry after SYF was over. hee.


this is one lengthy post. if you've been able to sustain till now, YOU ROCK!!! but less than me of course. LOL!!!! =D

a new term of lessons, the same old nagging from the same old teachers. lol. oh well..........................................


lol. mr lim went through our mid-years chem mcq just now. the best thing is that i couldn't even rmb my answers, let alone know whether they're correct or not. i'm sure they aren't, anyway. i could well get a 1/25. oh man! while ppl are busy thinking of the H3's they're gonna take, i'm gonna be considering which subject to drop to H1! lol.


haha, hilarious. hannah told me that i'm in the interclass soccer with amelia and chia wen! i was like........... "i can't play soccer, i run away when the ball comes!" whoa, imagine me playing soccer. lol.


had co today, after what seemed like a rather long while. HEH. i mustered that beautiful melody of dong ON THE GAO YIN SHENG!!!!! LOL!!!! the xian yue ppl happened to walk past and they said it's not bad! and someone asked me to gai3 hang2 HAHA. i'll consider. =D please call me a talent. LOL!!!!


mr quek conducted dazu today! hip hairstyle he has now. lol. anyway, like usual, he shocked me in the midst of my sudoku by asking me a question about gu4 ding4 yin1 gao1. and he called me "cai2 zheng4 bu4 zhang3". lol, he's just too used to that heh. told him i'm not the treasurer now! lol! hee mr quek's just miles better than.................... we all know, mentioning the name is unnecessary.


hai, some things get me sooooooooo annoyed. like................ what's with the way of the organisation? it's so............ and it's no wonder............. garh, it's suppressing to not be able to fill in those DOTS. haha. hee, at times i really dun know what to do. step aside........... or step up? trust me though. heh.


SOMEBODY got 90 marks for math mid-years, yeah SOMEBODY. this totally psychotic kleptomaniacal killer friend of mine whose name i shan't mention in case SOMEBODY decides to silence me for it. 90 marks. NINETY MARKS. SOMEBODY. LOL!!!!!!


oh gosh! we're getting back our math tmr! 5 U's on their way. "i'm on the way..................." BUT........ i'm dismissed at 12.10pm tmr! thanks to the combined co rehearsal. HOHO =D

some retarded pictures.







lam lee struggles to keep her balance while i'm posing coolly! whee! LOL.