Overrated.

The test was the test, the exam's the real deal.

And I don't feel as confident as I'd like to be.

Really.

Then again...

Let it not be what I want, but what You know is best for me.

I need to be emptied of my pride, I need to depend, I need to be clear of my purpose.

Help me not to be confident in myself, but in You.

For You.

Lord, when You are glorified
My heart is satisfied to know
All praise and honour are Yours

I wanna be able to say it, and mean it.

Please take over.

Amidst the exam stress, here's something that got me laughing for half an hour loooool.

So Mavis was asking me about Phonetics over the phone.

Mavis: You know, n's brother right...
Me: What?!?!?! Anne's brother????? (I heard it as "Anne's brother" which is perfectly justified cos that makes more sense and I was wondering which Anne and who's her brother.)
Mavis: You know, that syllable that looks like the /n/ but it has a hook.

She was referring to this -> /ŋ/, which she calls /n/'s brother.

LOL!!!!! I totally couldn't stop laughing and I keep laughing whenever I think of it. Today's been fun in a sense I guess. Going for a porridge buffet halfway through studying, laughing at Charlotte for dozing off every 5 seconds when we were studying LOL (donchu find that absolutely amusing and amazing...) and the fact that she bought dresses from the kids' section. Heheheh! :D

Geez. I can't believe I'm so relaxed two days before the start of exams.

Oh, it's now one day.

Which also means 7 days to the end. Let's go let's go, add oil and PRESS ON!!!!!!

Do it for Him.

SOMEONE told me she's amazed by my resilience recently.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Hahahahahahaha!

aɪv faɪnəli kəmpli:tɪd ðə paɪl əv ə\saɪnmənts ɪts taɪm tə stɑ:t \/stʌding bət weəz maɪ sens əv \ɜ:dʒənsi aɪ mɪs træn\skraɪbɪŋ /dəʊntʃʊ

Two things I've learnt, dependence and compromise. Times when I actually felt stressed, when I was pushed out of my comfort zone, when I had to do things I hadn't done before and didn't feel like doing. I had to ask God for help and depend on Him to lead me. Because I couldn't do all of those in my own strength. Once again, the fact was emphasised, that His strength is made perfect in my weakness.

And compromise. Two people with completely different attitudes, characters, mindsets and approaches. Perhaps there were tiny clashes at times. But God does allow all things, big or small, to happen for a reason. How could I expect you to take a chill pill without stepping up on my part? I'm sure both of us learnt much from this. I don't know if ultimately what I did was enough, but I tried my best. I thank God for His grace and strength, and I thank God for you, my friend. :)

I couldn't have asked for a better group. Jason and his lol comments, "I think there're too many leaders for this project; there's only one follower." Shena with her random, out-of-the-world imagination, Weiting, my Thursday lunch-mate who just discovered how to use the print screen function (HAHA) and Sarah, who supported and reminded me of a thousand and one things throughout. It's amazing, how last-minute yet extremely efficient we are. Seriously... Thank God for the group!

Hmm.

Thinking back...

How can I?

'Cos at the end of it, it's still pretty awesome.

Thank God for the Easter musical. It was just amazing. Time was so tight, but thank God for His grace that made up for it all. Once again, I'm thankful and honoured to be a part of it. Perhaps my pictures weren't that beautiful, but I tried. And I really had fun watching the musical tens of times while clicking the slides, I was totally not tired of the acting and singing. Not forgetting how Uncle Ivan and Aunty Alice are always so sweet to us, how the desire of each and every one in the team to serve the Lord blesses my heart, how the sweet unity in the team remains of great encouragement to me, and how the Lord uses people to come together for a little production that reaches the lost. It's simply amazing. I had a blast, thank God for the musical, thank God for every single profession of faith.

More than that, thank God for the reminder of what genuine love is all about. We're so often caught up in the matters of our lives, we just forget how God loves us so much. Sometimes, we need reminders and events to bring us to the realisation once again. The thought struck me just now, and I was overwhelmed.

I am amazed to know that a God so great could love me so...

Our human minds can never contain and comprehend the vast love of God, yet He still loves us so.

Thank God, thank God for Easter, thank God for the musical.

To be honest, I wasn't looking forward to Easter a couple days ago. It felt that there was too much on my plate such that I couldn't lift it, yet I didn't feel like I could get rid of anything on it. Well the doctor didn't give me nerve supplements for nothing. *Cue Sarah's "remember to take your nerve supplements!"* Maybe, just maybe, it was a protest from my body, that it couldn't take my last-minute rushing anymore. So it went on a strike, leaving me overwhelmed by the amount of things I had to do, yet without the strength to accomplish anything. I was terrified at the thought of work.

I'm still extremely tired. But I thank God for His grace and strength. Thank God that the three shows for the Easter Musical went well today. I can't believe it's over. All the hard work, stress, fluster, late nights, irritation... Yeah, I'm kinda sad that it's over. Of course, there're two more shows on Sunday but that'll be a different atmosphere altogether. Thank God for the privilege to play a small part in glorifying a great God. I really enjoyed myself! There seems to be nothing that exciting clicking the slides but I really had fun lol. And what Calvin said is just so cool. "You're in front of everyone and everything else, yet you're behind everyone and everything else." Awesome... Of course, thank God for Yuqian and Lam Lee who came to watch the musical! Thank you, thank you! :)

I came to realise that the rest of the semester has been planned out and I almost fainted in the shower.

The remaining of the Easter Musical
Week of 5 April
Mon: Phonetics test (which I'll have no time to study for)
Tue: ALS first draft due (I haven't even distributed the questionnaires)
Tue: ICT essay to be completed
Fri: ICT presentation, group assignment stuff due
Week of 12 April
Mon: AAE102 group assignment due (no texts yet!)
Thur: Math test
Fri: ALS research paper due
Week of 19 April
Final exams kick off with 3 back-to-back papers (where do I find the time to start studying?)
Last paper ends 27 April (HOLIDAYS!!!!!!)

Hey, at the very least I've completed two. Uh, listing out the stuff and getting the dates right! Hurray.

Perhaps there was a slight disappointment. But I'm so thankful, thank God for the first step. In His time... :)

Blessed Easter!