wahahahaha. went to far east plaza to cut my hair today, with sharon, joo and mei ching. we spent quite a long time deciding which salon to go to and finally decided on this place called prince and princess or something lol. and when we were inside, we took an equally long time deciding on our hairstyles. but the hairdressers were rather patient. haha! so amusing, sharon was like our mother, telling the hairdressers what to do about our hair and all that LOL. anyway, there's like no difference in my hair, other than the "tail" at the back being snipped off and some trimmings done. but i'm super thankful that they din spoil my hair! hahaha. ohh sharon's hair is really nice and joo's is COOL! haha!


hee, alison left for canada this morning to study there. sigh................. was thinking about it last night and felt rather emo all of a sudden. but yeah, all the best and God bless! :)


i've been online since i came home. it's so cool, being able to be online 24/7 again. hahaha. gonna be a lazy day tmr, going to church then spending my time catching up on lost sleep. and for next week, it's all PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, this marks the end of the promos. which also means that my future is set. well, this period of time was rather.. special. coz it really determines my future, like REALLY. if i'm gonna get retained...................... let's not think about it for now hee. shan't go into the minute details of each paper, i think it's highly unnecessary. i have no clue as to how i'm gonna do, i have no wish to think back, i have no idea what the results will be, i have no guts to imagie what it could possibly be. all i know is that, thank God for being with me, for giving me the strength. "Faith in the Lord", that's what audrey kept reminding me.


also given to me by audrey, from 1 Peter 5:7 "casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." haha believe it or not, i was moved to tears, literally, when i received that message. i was having such an agonising time cramming all that ionic equilibrium stuff into my overly packed mind (it's demoralising when you start off the day with IE and at close to midnight, you're still at IE when the paper's just the next day and you have yet to touch the other topics). yeah, that message came at such a timely moment that i was just so, so touched. haha.


it's just weird, during this exam period i kept thinking of my family, about how they'll be so disappointed if i'm really retained. haha, i was telling mei ching the other day not to be surprised if i break down before collecting our results. she just din believe that i'll actually cry. well...... i've never been so bothered by an exam before! even O levels wasn't half as taxing as this. damn, i dun know if i'm gonna have any regrets. but yeah, i should already be grateful. for not feeling the pressure, for having the strength to go on. and no matter what happens, thank you to those who've been helping me and giving me so much encouragement! :)


yep as mentioned, last paper today. went with s34 to sakae at wheelock place. we got a complaint by some customers for being noisy! who're the noisy ones, man! yeah we went to walk around orchard after that. i'm sooooooooo tired now and my legs are aching! lol. hee, i really needa spend more time with s34, who knows if i'll still be there next year. gosh, it's such a saddening thought. shan't think about that anymore. treasure the present moments!


i'm so blessed, i really am, i have nothing more to ask for. Thank You! (:


now for my after-promos list:
1. KBOX!!!!!!!!!!!
2. seoul garden
3. a very much-needed haircut
4. lots and lots of sleep
5. and lots and lots of play!


whee! LIFE IS GAY! =D

omg omg omg omg omg the exams start TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven't been worrying these past few days but just now, a thought suddenly came to mind. what if i get retained? i'm very sure i won ever be in the mood to study anymore. argh, it's such a helpless feeling! and i can only blame myself. damn, i can only hope that these few days can help! i can't do anything, i can only pray. God help me! and all the best to everyone for promos!

something rather.. amusing. i got full marks for my bio remedial re-test! LOL. but honestly, it's just memorising the answers and such a thing will never happen during exams, so.. that was just to shock mrs lim a little lol. she was like, "ruth can memorise!" hee, who can't? haha. speaking of bio, my life practically revolves around it. mrs lim literally threw me one whole ton of work on monday! study the entire cellular functions (includes cell bio, carbo and some other chapters) and answer the entire candidates' objectives from (a) to (m), finish the whole genetics tutorial and finish the exam paper in one day. does she think i'm some superpower robot or what! anyway, i painfully finished up the 6 chapters, writing out everything under the list of objectives and gave it to her the next day. and she went, "huh? you ONLY did this?!" ROAR. i dropped bio for a reason okay! so that i have some time to concentrate on other salvagable subjects, not to spend another one-third of my life on bio! yes it's my fault that i'm doing such last minute revision, that i haven't finished my revision, and that's precisely why i'm trying to finish up all my stuff now. i do not only take one subject, i have 3 other subjects to worry about. argh!


lol. i had to see mrs lim yesterday, and valerie came along. whoa, the way she conversed with mrs lim, i think i've got myself a new mum LOL!!!!! super hilarious! but cool, coz she somewhat managed to "drag" me away when mrs lim tried to make me stay back. haha!


HAHAHA. ms wong went through some essay stuff during GP just now, and she asked a question about what do we do after writing our names down, something like that. she said she'll call the most studious person to answer and she called me! LOL! i was like totally clueless coz i was busy doing some bio stuff (see what i mean when i say my life revolves around bio, i actually did bio during GP, what's the world come to rarh). but anyway, you're talking to the "most studious person"! LOL ms wong's hilarious man!


i was telling shiang nee just now about how i'm so worried that i'll get retained. and she said, "i dun want you to be retained, you must study okay!" ahhhh i'm so touched =( haha. been feeling weird nowadays, i really, really, REALLY hope that i'll be promoted! i wonder what i'm doing online. i'm supposed to be making full use of every minute to study! and i actually took a 3-hour nap just now. argh. hope that i'll mug HARD tmr hehe.


shall try to not come online till after promos hee. now, i'm gonna do my EoM. how fun.


and before i forget. thank you everyone who has helped me and given me so much encouragement! :)

this week's a rather boring "holiday", if it should even be one. been spending the whole of it studying! argh, i was counting the number of chapters just now and i realise that i'm only about halfway done and it's a matter of DAYS to the promos. dammit, the rest of the two weeks have gotta be spent on mugging and NOTHING BUT MUGGING.


ROAR. it's times when you glance at your empty notes that you regret skipping those lectures, trying so hard to make head or tail of all that incoherent and discorganised nonsense information on your bio notes that you regret not paying attention, not understanding a single crap in the chem notes that you regret not doing your tutorials. but of course, it's too late for regrets, i'll just have to make the most out of this remaining time left. it's not much, but it can make a difference! umm, hopefully. each time i cram chunks of information into my head, i really wonder if it will pay off. i'm just so afraid of getting retained, imagine all the disappointment my parents will feel............ =( study, study, study HARD and not have regrets. i hope.


went to school to do PW yesterday. hope mr lim won draw that cliff thing on our written report again anymore man........ haha. went to study at the parkway burger king with huijin after that. and i finally understood implicit differentiation LOL. oh zilu all of a sudden asked me if i was studying for my promos. haha! all the best to the seniors for all upcoming exams! :D :D :D


received a message from zhiying yesterday asking if i wanna go send yelin off, she's going to scotland to study. i din, btw. my dad would have complained that i should be studying haha. but it goes to show how everyone around me has their own dreams and ideals. unlike me, who's in the meantime really struggling for a promotion. i guess my goal in life is just to have a goal. heh.

gosh, this marks the end of term 3 and in a mere 20 days we'll all be sitting for the dreadful promos! roar. mug i hope to do, pray i can only do. hee!


went out with joanne, lam lee, yuqian, valerie and cristal on wed. yeah, one last time before joanne left for the uk. she's only coming back next year! sob. haha, we were laughing over the "good ole days" again over dinner. how lam lee was always so unlucky, getting caught over looking at the mirror, eating sweets, things the rest of us did often but never got caught. lol! and we were commenting about how hilarious mrs ang was. her favourite chinese phrases, "luan luan lai" and "jia li hai" LOL! haha yeah and how she called me the smart girl from dhp (the "smart girl" is struggling to get promoted now =( ) and many other amusing stuff! oh man, those were the days! haha. hope joanne's having fun back in the uk now!


yesterday was the teachers' day celebrations. the plan was to go back to dhs with yuqian, lamlee and cristal but we decided not to coz it was rather late. haha yup went to city hall instead to buy lamlee's present. valerie kept rambling on about kbox and made me wanna go too! but of course we din, due to our holey pockets heheh. we spent a rather long time there eating at different places HAHA.


hee, i'm starting to miss my sec 4 days again. those were like the best days of my secondary school life! all the nonsensical stuff i did, the great teachers who taught me and the simply WONDERFUL friends i made! but well, life's currently great too! with the exception that i constantly worry about getting retained yet i dun do anything about it. and i wonder if anyone will miss me if i get retained! lolol. that's what yuqian, lamlee and i put on our msn nicks. "if i'm retained, will i be missed?" dammit, i need the promotion, i need to study! heh.


came across this line which i find rather meaningful. time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by the wheels; only when the clock stops does time come alive. I HAVE NO TIME! lol.