Sentimental Moods

Thank God for this year's Chinese New Year. I daresay it's the best I ever had. Maybe the atmosphere wasn't there. But what I love about it is its simplicity. More importantly, the time I spent with my cousins. I enjoyed myself so much, and I really thank God for this relationship we can have with one another. And you know, what tops it all is that my relatives said that I've changed. This, I know, can only have been brought about by Him.

So after the past few days, I'm officially in one of my "sentimental moods" again. Yes, I've decided to term it that way. Maybe this is the cause, maybe it's not, for my slight emo-ness today. I've been feeling this since the year started and it's only becoming more evident. For some strange reason, I feel that a certain group of people have become strangers to me once again. The relationships built last year, all of a sudden seem to have dissolved in an instant. But of course, maybe it's just me. You know how we often blame the world when something goes wrong but never ourselves? Perhaps that's just what I'm doing. Perhaps I'm the one who has yet to tear down those walls.

I was just telling someone, if I were to live by my feelings, I would've left. But I really don't think this is what the Lord would have me do. The grass always seems greener on the other side. But this is probably just a momentary, a fleeting thought that will eventually pass. Because I just want to have fun. But when we go deeper, I suppose it is best for me to stay. Well, I said that I would give myself at least a year. And I will keep to what I said. At least a year...

Thank you for the little things you did. I wish I'd spoken to you more, told you how I felt. But well, what you did, insignificant they might be to you, warmed my day a little. :)